Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 started this discussion 6 years ago#93,514
Ever since yesterday morning I’ve constantly been feeling on edge and feel like I might be on the brink of an anxiety attack. I have no body to talk to right now since they’re either are asleep or trying to fall asleep. I’ve also been very emotional lately and I am worrying about some of my friends. A community that I was frequently a part of is shutting down and there are strange things that seem to be happening with my favorite artist. Is this Hell? Are we all living in Hell right now?
> You have been in hell since you were born, my boy. You will go to hell when you die with your penis still attached sir.
Harsh but likely fair.
jodi !ariasXXmaE joined in and replied with this 6 years ago, 37 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,643
wow the brink of anxiety I feel so bad for you
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC joined in and replied with this 6 years ago, 58 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,649
Is the Poppy Church shutting down?
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 1 hour later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,655
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Yes ... you knew about it?
@1,058,639 (Father Merrin !Ep8pui8Vw2)
Hopefully, I’m not put in the same section as the pedophiles. Looks like you’re there alone.
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 6 years ago, 55 seconds later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,656
You just need to suck a cock
wade replied with this 6 years ago, 3 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,658
> You just need to suck a cock
globble joined in and replied with this 6 years ago, 1 minute later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,659
You know poppy isn't real right
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 4 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,661
@previous (globble)
She recently broke character for an interview.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 39 seconds later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,662
@1,058,655 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
No not until you mentioned it
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC double-posted this 6 years ago, 46 seconds later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,663
What strange things are happening with Poppy?
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 4 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,667
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I don’t know and I don’t know if they are strange. Though I do get the impression that she is likely either going on hiatus, retiring from music/content making, or just putting the whole character to bed. The V.I.P. thing for the upcoming tour is apparently going to be held as a funeral service.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 23 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,669
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Has anything else happened to make you think this besides the funeral tour?
jodi !ariasXXmaE replied with this 6 years ago, 4 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,670
@1,058,667 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
chill tf out homie
globble replied with this 6 years ago, 21 seconds later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,671
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 15 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,673
@1,058,669 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Nothing is really confirmed, though, the interview where she kind of broke character and a few before makes me suspect that she might be getting ready to put the persona to bed. Like to publish music as herself.
@previous (globble)
Here’s the interview, but she does have this manner of speaking that sounds like she could still be in character. Makes me think of Bray Wyatt from WWE who when given an interview he has a way of being out of character yet still in character at the same time. https://www.nme.com/big-read-poppy-interview-2019-i-disagree-breaks-character
But she does kind of speak about things like the whole Grimes incident and the Mars Argo lawsuit.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 14 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,676
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
I think she might have an eating disorder or being vegan is kicking her ass. She is super thin and her face looks zombieish. Also her hair looks like the type you see on an anorexic
Also she kind of came across like a jackals. She won't watch some thing popular or something that someone recommends?
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 10 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,678
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I remember there was another girl on YouTube years ago that got people talking about that too. I had some suspicions like that too, but I also think maybe she is just skinny. I don’t really know for sure. I don’t know what anorexic hair looks like to be honest. Also, what is a jackals? I’m not sure what you were asking about with that last question.
You can see her full figure during this performance. Yes, she did a performance at NXT and WWE has used two of her songs in the past (“Scary Mask” and “X”). Both videos are connected, WWE just separated them. https://youtu.be/veuLKtjB0RI https://youtu.be/h27izmXXu-Q
They even gave her an on-air interview which I don’t remember them doing for any other musical guest. https://youtu.be/wzaR-YxnHd0
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 3 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,680
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
A jackals. Did you read the interview?
globble replied with this 6 years ago, 2 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,681
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 1 minute later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,682
@1,058,680 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I just don’t remember reading that in the interview. I’m sorry. :-(
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 2 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,683
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
They asked her if she had seen a Black Mirror episode and she said that she doesnt watch anything popular or anything that people recommend. They also mentioned that she had attended Marilyn Mansons birthday party and asked what gift she brought and she said "my presence". Ugh
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 1 minute later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,684
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
lol I kind of forgot about them mentioning Black Mirror. Now I kind of want to rewatch that episode since I don’t remember too many episodes.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) double-posted this 6 years ago, 2 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,685
I think she might be collaborating with Marilyn Manson on the new album. I’m not surprised since they’re apparently good friends. I wonder if she met Johnny Depp though since Manson is going to be his best man.
(Edited 15 seconds later.)
tteh !GETFUCKED joined in and replied with this 6 years ago, 6 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,687
At the risk of sounding condescending, I think you spend a lot of time online, investing far too much energy into online 'communities'/BBSes/forums and the like. It would turn anybody into an anxiety-ridden mess over a long enough period. IDK.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 1 minute later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,688
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) double-posted this 6 years ago, 13 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,691
God damn it, every time I try to leave the cave I always retreat back into it.
tteh !GETFUCKED replied with this 6 years ago, 7 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,692
@1,058,688 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Have you thought about limiting the amount of time you spend online? Maybe find a part-time job or volunteer. People who try to make large, abrupt changes to their lifestyle usually find themselves quickly falling back into old habits, so maybe just set aside a few hours each day to read, go outside, or do something that isn't plugged into a wall. (I'm not grate at giving advice, but you get the idea.)
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 2 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,693
@previous (tteh !GETFUCKED)
A part time job is a good idea
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 1 minute later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,694
@1,058,692 (tteh !GETFUCKED)
Whenever I’m not at home in my room I’m usually at school all day.
It’s like I have withdraw symptoms when I try not using my computer. Like it’s shut down right now, but I am still online via my iPad.
And whenever someone asks me a question it feels like they really don’t care and I’m just a spector in the moment. I feel like a ghost only witnessing events.
I guess being on the internet since I was 12-to-14 made me an addict.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) double-posted this 6 years ago, 8 hours later, 20 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,837
Jesus... I need to get the fuck off of the internet and yet it sucks me back in.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 4 minutes later, 20 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,838
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Why not start volunteering at a non tranny place?
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 11 minutes later, 20 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,839
I think I am a closeted Rebecca Black fan.
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
There is a place I would love to volunteer at but it is a tranny place and it’s in Cathedral City. That place is very zen.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 1 hour later, 22 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,853
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Being around abnormal people doesn't seem like a solution
Trannies will let you get away with acting like an autist in public, and therefore will not improve your people skills
Also a "zen" place is not a proper setting to get you ready for the workforce
(Edited 2 minutes later.)
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 6 minutes later, 22 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,855
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
You know most who go into that clinic are pretty normal and it’s in the low desert who are pretty LGBT friendly.
I kind of wish I could afford to live down there. It’s isolated in its own valley yet you’re not missing out on the luxuries of a city.
It reminds me of Las Vegas.
I also think they could help me find employment since that’s what their clinic kind of does according to the stories I heard on their Facebook page.
(Edited 1 minute later.)
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 6 minutes later, 22 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,856
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
You don't need help though!
You need to take the plunge and do it. The longer that you aren't around normal people in a normal similar to a job setting is a detriment to you
Anonymous B replied with this 6 years ago, 8 minutes later, 22 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,058,857
None. He's just a tedious drama queen who seeks attention. Kook is wasting her time giving him advice because it's not advice he's after. Just attention. The best way to help him is to stop reacting to his dumb shit.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 4 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,058,928
Catherine, I care about you and worry about you. Why do you ignore good advice?
Anonymous D replied with this 6 years ago, 22 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,058,940
Anonymous C replied with this 6 years ago, 6 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,059,121
@1,058,879 (D)
What the fuck...is wrong with someone needing attention you faggot...most people need it..
I bet you make some of the stupidest comments and replies out of anybody here so they will respond and give you attention..
AND...I bet you make everyone of them anon so no one will know all yourr posts are that of a nerdy little bitch..
Yep..
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 36 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,059,139
@1,059,113 (beckeyderp !3NeoVaGFAg)
I care about you, but I don't worry
beckeyderp !3NeoVaGFAg replied with this 6 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,059,140
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Oh I thought you were Anonymous L
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 34 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,059,166
I made homemade beef ? and broccoli ?. I know it’s not actual Chinese food, but it’s great for a quick meal. I served it over Jasmine rice.
I made a therapist appointment at the clinic next Wednesday since they offer free counciling which is nice. I need to talk to somebody since I’m unable to afford an appointment with my current therapist. If all goes well, I might go down there more often. I thank God for places like this and sometimes feel like someone up there does look out for me. I suppose I need to trust the universe more.
@1,058,928 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I haven’t ignored it. I’ve taken steps toward it. It’s still in my mind.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 8 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,059,170
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
What steps have you taken? There are not many steps involved in getting a real job or volunteer job
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 6 years ago, 4 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,059,174
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Well, yeah, though this reminds me that I should check back in with the Department of Rehabilitation. School keeps me busy and can sometimes serve as a deterrent.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 6 years ago, 11 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#1,059,178
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
So you haven't really taken any steps? Are you seeing school as a permanent job?
Anonymous L replied with this 6 years ago, 7 hours later, 2 days after the original post[^][v]#1,059,253