Anonymous A started this discussion 15 years ago#8,616
Four years ago, my body decided to switch my pigments around and I turned black. It was very noticeable. All the caviar and yacht cruises I felt sexually attracted to now garnered zero sexual response or arousal. And suddenly, I began to become attracted to watermelon, crack and all sorts of chicken meals. I've gone to therapists, taken blood tests. I've asked for CAT scans and other tests, but to no avail (expensive and people think I'm black). It pisses me off to no end when people tell me how I feel, like "you probably are just white and experiencing niggeritis" or "you were probably black all along".
I feel like I'm the only person in the world who wasn't born black, but anyway, I think today I'm going to kill myself. I have nowhere to go, nowhere to hide. No one will help, no one believes me. I don't belong in the black community, the white community, the mulatto community. I'm a nobody. I wish everything was the way it was before but that's impossible.