Anonymous A started this discussion 7 years ago#82,305
I went out and smoked a fat joint and when I sat down in my chair I immediately found myself in a dark place.
In the distance there was a glowing white figure, like a tunnel opening in the distance. I knelt on the ground in terror and awe, down and down until I was flat on my face and i heard the figure speak.
THERE IS NO GOD BUT THE LORD, AND MUHAMMED IS HIS PROPHET.
It echoed over and over in my mind and with each reverbation I grew more and more certain in the truth of it all.
I looked upon the figure, and it was like gazing into eternity. It was everything and nothing. I was humbled; God be praised. Then I was back in my seat.
Praise be to the Lord, the most merciful, the forgiving. He has chosen me to hear his messenger speak. He has given me a purpose, to spread my seed within the Muslim community and thereby, become a godly man.
I signed up to MuzMatch and will let you all know when I find a wife.
Captain Kate Carr joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 4 minutes later[^][v]#951,027
Muslims do smoke a lot of weed in my experience
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 5 minutes later, 9 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,029
According to what I have read in the Qur'an, God guides whom He wills.
I too have been going through some sort of spiritual awakening, but a part of me feels like I may have shunned God to a point where He wants nothing to do with me. Though I know He's all forgiving though I question if I deserve to seek forgiveness of Him.
What causes this spiritual awakening is the fact that 1 year ago it felt as if everything was good in my life and I was feeling happy with myself. Now 1 year later, it feels like everything reverted back to the way it was and only keeps getting worse spiraling me down a dark pit of despair that there is no escape. I sometimes question if this is because I have neglected God or sometimes I question if it's because I'm a piece of shit.
This is one of the motives why I feel like maybe I need to just schedule an early appointment with my endocrinologist and get back on the hormones. I felt excited 1 year ago since I thought there was a chance at a family, one related to me, but now I am questioning if this was nothing but a massive mistake that set a chain of events leading me to darker places. When I first went on the hormones I had the mind that it just wasn't going to be in my life. Not sure why now I am having a hard time letting go of this, though, it's likely because I wanted kids since I was a kid.
I'm going to make note of this to my urologist and my endocrinologist. If I were on any path of ascension, it's gone now, I'm just descending more each second.
I'm glad that you had this experience and sorry for carrying on. I just wanted to share similar spiritual awakenings I've had in my life. I suppose I got carried away near the end. Either way, if this is what you believe, then I would imagine it's because God or something is guiding you in that direction.
Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 10 minutes later, 20 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,030
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
it sounds like you're depressed and should see a psychologist before an endocrinologist
Syntax joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 2 minutes later, 22 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,031
Quran
15:19 And the earth We have spread out (like a carpet); set thereon mountains firm and immovable; and produced therein all kinds of things in due balance.
Just be careful when you start driving so as to not fall over the edge of Earth.
> but now I am questioning if this was nothing but a massive mistake that set a chain of events leading me to darker places.
Perhaps get Brother drunk and find out if he really wanted a Sister instead of you
Now on the other hand perhaps just perhaps you could do as those that get past Flat Earth of Allah and discover the inner Genetic map of you?
Hey sometimes I TAKE a stab at web content I C and ask this
A man with one watch knows what time it is; a man with two watches is never quite sure.
~Lee Segall
Begin at the beginning... and go on till you come to the end: then stop.
~Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland
This one u should enjoy
Losing an illusion makes you wiser than finding a truth.
~Ludwig Börne
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 replied with this 7 years ago, 29 seconds later, 23 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,032
@951,030 (D)
I do see a therapist. I actually sent her an e-mail to schedule an appointment between my visit with the Department of Rehabilitation and my urologist a few nights ago. She's on her annually vacation right now so I may have to wait to hear back from her after New Year's Eve. But I'm planning to see her again.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 double-posted this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 24 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,034
@951,031 (Syntax)
Why do you show up in almost any thread about religion?
Anonymous D replied with this 7 years ago, 2 minutes later, 27 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,037
@951,029 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
like seriously don't tell people about your 'path of ascension' please
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 replied with this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 28 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,038
@previous (D)
I don't see why I would bring it up to anyone other than my therapist or a priest that I met on Facebook, but alright.
Anonymous D replied with this 7 years ago, 45 seconds later, 29 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,040
@951,031 (Syntax) > Perhaps get Brother drunk and find out if he really wanted a Sister instead of you
wow not everybody is as into incest as you are len g. berenstain
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 34 seconds later, 30 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,041
> Not sure why now I am having a hard time letting go of this, though, it's likely because I wanted kids since I was a kid.
Shall I inform you of something better than that? For those who are righteous, with their Lord are Gardens beneath which rivers flow, where they will remain forever, and purified spouses, and acceptance from God.
Anonymous D replied with this 7 years ago, 2 seconds later, 30 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,042
@951,038 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
you said you were going to tell it to your urologist lol
also tell us more about the priest you met on Facebook
Syntax replied with this 7 years ago, 33 seconds later, 30 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,043
@951,034 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
I have studied religion for years. Not as much as in the past.
I am 100% sure I do not believe in God like beings because of the several times I have been close to a death experience I have never once prayed to some make believe God asking for anything.
A for instance was the time I was in a rush to dig up wild onions late at night on a mountain clime and made a pot of Julia Child's Onion Soup and realized at the final moment as I was about to enjoy my 1st taste that I Had failed to check for Death Camus that looks EXACTLY Like Wild Onions except for lack of Onion smell (your supposed to put nose to bulb and inhale) or the color of flour if flowering (White for Death Camus and Purple for Onion)
I said to self Life has been just fantastic n if I have made a boo boo then the taste of soup was worth it -
Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 32 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,046
@951,040 (D)
But Cath has admitted to being mounted by his own brother, and he got a boner from it. Is that not incest?
Syntax replied with this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 33 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,047
@previous (F)
Naw you're jumping at conclusions - Just Bro doing horse play and Cathy was the Horse.
Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 44 seconds later, 34 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,048
Perhaps this experience is a foreshadowing of a much longer experience ahead of you. I believe that people are too quick to interpret what it is that God wants, and therefore, every experience with God is a long one because it takes a long time to interpret the meaning God gives.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 replied with this 7 years ago, 3 minutes later, 38 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,050
@951,042 (D)
Oh, I meant I was going to bring up the fact that I am contemplating just going back on the hormones. I wasn't going to mention any of the spiritual stuff. Sorry if I didn't clarify.
@951,046 (F)
I never admitted such a thing. In the thread, you're most likely referencing, I said it was mostly just immature sexual jokes he makes.
@951,040 (D)
That does bring back memories of years ago when he did one day say he wish I were a girl so he could "defend my honor" since he has this weird Medieval desire to be chivalrous. I think we were watching some fantasy film, but I don't remember what it was.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 double-posted this 7 years ago, 9 minutes later, 47 minutes after the original post[^][v]#951,052
@951,048 (G)
I agree wholeheartedly with this post.
"A single thread in a tapestry though its color brightly shines can never see its purpose in the pattern of the grand design."
-- Through Heaven's Eyes, The Prince of Egypt (1998)