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Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 started this discussion 7 years ago#81,494
So I could get some sense about my fertility test.
I was going to tell my doctor that I want to get back on the hormones, but if I find a urologist then maybe I might finally get some insight about what's going on then make the decision from there.
> What if you're low T and getting on a testosterone supplement will erase the trannyness?
A valid point
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 4 minutes later, 38 minutes after the original post[^][v]#945,371
Also you should ask the urologist about your dog dick disorder
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 11 minutes later, 49 minutes after the original post[^][v]#945,372
@945,368 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I know, I've thought about that, though I'm sure they've worked with transsexuals before. Being off the hormones kind of already did that. What worries me about testosterone is that I question if I'm like you in that if I get any more T then I might turn into a serial killer. I still remember that post you made and it frightens me.
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
That was so long ago that I'm not sure if I could describe it clearly even though I was never good at describing it in the first place.
Syntax joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 9 minutes later, 59 minutes after the original post[^][v]#945,374
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2) > I might turn into a serial killer.
No I do not think so. A Cereal killer yes.
As others have said Nexus, none of use will ever forget what happened to Nexus.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 9 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,375
Nothing Natural about amounts you need to attempt to turn into Man made Women
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 1 second later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,384
@945,381 (Billy Gonad)
You keep this shit up and I'll snap making you my first and possibly the only victim.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) double-posted this 7 years ago, 49 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,385
@945,383 (Syntax)
Yeah, but estrogen and testosterone themselves aren't exactly unnatural when they are produced by the body.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 11 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,388
@945,384 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
You have a few things driving you crazy
1. You're horny and won't do anything about it
2. You don't get enough exercise
3. You don't get the proper nutrients
4. You spend too much of your time with family
Change some of these things and maybe you won't feel like you're bursting to kill
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Syntax replied with this 7 years ago, 43 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,389
@945,385 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Grrrrrrr
No question you need hormones checked and adjusted for what your body is supposed to B
Issues R If you have them Jack the Estrogen UP UP
Like stuff such as this
1-Loss of motivation and energy, may cause depression
2-Chemical castration, experienced through lower libido, partial or complete loss of sexual capability, less sexual interest, and fewer sexual thoughts.
Damn as if you need less when as you have said you have Nada
3-Drying out of the skin, increased need for hand lotions and moisturizer.
4-Over 6–24 months, loss of muscle mass.
If I remember correctly you already have less of that then you need
Ouch this one is well Yikes - You will experience gender dysphoria for the first time in your life, as your body gradually becomes more and more feminine. This would likely result in chronic depression, anxiety, and suicidal episodes.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 4 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,395
@945,388 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Can someone be horny and not realize they are horny?
Everything else is spot on though I'm not sure if the family is true. It seems like nowadays everybody here remains segregated to their rooms yet it still feels like I am spending too much time with them.
@previous (Syntax)
I have number one right now when I'm off of the estrogen not when I was on it.
Syntax replied with this 7 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,396
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
You were not on HRT for all that long.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,397
@previous (Syntax)
I was on HRT for six months to a year.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,399
@945,395 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
I don't mean spend more time alone. I mean spend more time with your peers
Also you know that you are horny.
Why are you acting like you don't know?
Syntax replied with this 7 years ago, 7 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,405
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Given Cathy had to think of Devil or some other wacky whatever to get rocks off - Doubt Cathy has a cents of what Horny means
Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 3 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,406
Tell us Catherine, share with us your feelings and thoughts you habe had about these things. You are safe here, you can let it out.
Have you imagined killing people? Do you feel as though if you take a life then the demons will be satisfied at last and leave you alone? Maybe they will and maybe they will require more than that.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 1 second later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,407
@945,405 (Syntax)
That’s true, but where did you get the devil thing?
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) double-posted this 7 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#945,408
@945,406 (F)
I don’t really fantasize about murder that often honestly. I try to distance myself from those thoughts whenever they come up.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 5 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,410
@945,405 (Syntax)
Catherine knows when she is horny. I've no doubt about it.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC double-posted this 7 years ago, 26 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,411
@945,407 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
You've literally talked about it like a dozen times
Syntax replied with this 7 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,413
@945,407 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Got that from that Demon inside you that you said you have
Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,416
Catherine has your mother told you in the past that sex is naughty that it is dirty?
Syntax replied with this 7 years ago, 44 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,417
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 started this discussion 3 months ago
I have very angry outburst and just start yelling at anything that makes me angry. When I am in this angry state I don't give a fuck about anybody or anything. I get dark statistic thoughts. I think this was what lead me to create the Samson "persona" here on Minichan.
But I am also being haunted by a demon in my dreams who tries to control me by restraining me without restraints and placing his hand on my heart as a means of slowing it down.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,419
I've thought of another thing that makes you feel like you will snap. Constantly hiding things. Like not dressing as a women in public and also hiding the trans thing from your brother
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 30 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,420
@945,411 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I think that was just me getting this shit out of my system so I don't actually act on this shit, but you're right. Though I do not remember the last time I made a thread like that and no, that one thread that sounds like me isn't actually me.
@945,413 (Syntax)
It sometimes feels like I have demons even though the chances of demons actually existing is slim.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) double-posted this 7 years ago, 50 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,421
@945,419 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
You are dead fucking on right there. Of course, I could add one more thing, being a massive pussy since that is what I am.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,423
@945,420 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
You used to go on about how hot it would be to be to be Eat and bride
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,424
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I remember making a post about being the bride of the devil, but what is this eat thing?
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 3 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,425
@945,421 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Why not go out as a woman, tastefully and in an understated way? Its not like you go to bats or hang out in alleys. You'll be fine
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC double-posted this 7 years ago, 30 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,427
@945,424 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
It keeps autocorrecting Satan to eat for some reason
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 1 hour later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,437
> You keep this shit up and I'll snap making you my first and possibly the only victim.
You would end up shooting yourself while attempting to load the gun or cut an artery and bleed out trying to conceal the knife. pfffft now stfu
Anonymous I replied with this 7 years ago, 4 hours later, 20 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,623
@945,567 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
My guess is that s-a-t is a common typo for e-a-t since the "s" is near the "e" key. People probably type "eat" + indefinite article way more often than "satan" and autocorrect is just playing probabilities.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 7 minutes later, 20 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,626
> enis > > an urologist > > English isn't your first language, is it?
Q: What do you say when you are comforting a grammar nazi?
A: There, Their, They're
Q: How do you get ten English teachers to agree on the best teaching method?
A: Shoot nine of them.
Anonymous L joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 1 hour later, 22 hours after the original post[^][v]#945,653
I wonder how many MediCAL dollars have been wasted on you
Anonymous M joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 3 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#945,695
Why do you feel the need to post everything about your life to a bunch of people who just see you as something to poke fun at? Do you realize that's how people see you? Is it because you feel like this is the only place you have friends? Except, they aren't your friends, they're essentially bullies. Cathy why
Anonymous N joined in and replied with this 7 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#945,697
@previous (M)
Some of us are trying our best to help her. Also she says she has very few friends in r/l. So we will do our best to help her here.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 7 years ago, 55 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#945,738
@945,695 (M) @previous (N)
Agreed. Some of us do want to help, and do give her good advice
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Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 15 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#945,889
@945,695 (M)
I wish I could answer that one myself. I suppose it's just an old habit since I've been on this website since 2010 or so.
@945,697 (N)
I know people in real life now yet I remain too afraid to engage more.
Anonymous M replied with this 7 years ago, 4 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#945,944
@previous (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
Lordy. Me too. But there is balance. Sounds like you need therapy, dude. I used to be similar in that I had some fairly serious anxiety business going on but it's overcomable. Is it too expensive? Because there are places with sliding scales. There is group therapy. Especially if you feel like you've got gender stuff going on. Where do you live again? Arizona or some shit?
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 7 years ago, 10 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#945,948
@previous (M)
I still see my therapist. The one who signed my diagnose letter. She works on a sliding scale though it’s still pricey so I try to see her once a month. And I'm in California.