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Topic: What is wrong with me?

Anonymous A started this discussion 15 years ago #7,628

Really, the last year I've been going through these stupid bouts of being really happy, then really sad, then really happy, and now it's just so annoying. I feel all lonely and I have a lot of friends, but I guess it's my fault because I never try or make an effort. But that's because I know what people are like, they're going to fuck me over and I can't trust anybody and people always lie to me and say I'm pretty and funny and this and that but I think it's ridiculous.
There isn't even anything wrong in my life and everything is going well but I just hate it and always half an empty feeling. I always dream to grow up alone.
Don't get me wrong, I love living even though I feel sad a lot, it's just I don't see the point of all the crap we have to deal with. I hate people and then I feel bad because I also like a lot of people in a strange way and I don't want to hurt them but then I get worried I don't try hard enough and feel really lousy.
Why can't I just be a cat or something? I don't even know. . .
does anybody else feel the same?

Anonymous B joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 30 minutes later[^] [v] #132,274

Bipolar.

!poISOnioxc joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 35 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,287

Get a hobby, OP.

Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 37 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,288

I hear drugs help.

!poISOnioxc replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 39 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,291

@previous (D)
This, also. Smoke moar weed.

Anonymous E joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 32 seconds later, 39 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,292

@132,288 (D)
They're only a temporary fix. Once they wear off, you're right back in the gutter.

Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 42 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,294

@132,288 (D)
@132,291 (!poISOnioxc)
@132,287 (!poISOnioxc)
My hobby is smoking marijuana...
Mary jane is my best fried I'll always love.

(Edited 40 seconds later.)

Anonymous D replied with this 15 years ago, 48 seconds later, 42 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,295

@previous (A)
Then you should be smoking more.

Keep smoking until your're problems go away.

(Edited 33 seconds later.)

Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 46 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,300

It helps, but I don't have the money. Weed over here is really expensive and I can't afford it. It's really hard to get a job but I don't mind that I struggle with money, money isn't the problem. Yes, weed does help but I have no problems to go away, I don't think.
I can't quite put my finger on it if there's a problem.

!poISOnioxc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 47 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,303

@132,294 (A)
I mean, find something you like and are passionate about. There has to be something out there that interests you...
Join a book club? Sign up for martial arts? Volunteer to help out within your community? Get a job? Get involved with the world around you. Lonley > bored > irritated/frustrated > depressed.

Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 49 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,307

@OP
Are you xanax girl?

!poISOnioxc replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 52 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,312

@132,300 (A)
There's not enough going on in your life. It sounds bland and boring. Maybe that's it.

Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 55 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #132,315

I think I'm just a little paranoid in case I'm insane or something.
I think everyone is insane anyway :3

@132,303 (!poISOnioxc)
I haven't really found my 'talent' but there isn't anything that good here. I don't know what I'm passionate about, either, it would be quite the challenge and I'd end up giving up and getting the 'fuck it' feeling. However, this was good advice and if something comes my way I'll take whatever it is up.


@132,307 (F)
Nope, I don't really do drugs. There isn't anything genuine here, most drugs aren't even what people say they are.

(Edited 1 minute later.)

Anonymous F replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #132,319

@previous (A)
Well you sound a bit fucked, but I can relate to not wanting to put effort into friends who still like you. Sometime I hate everybody, then I go have some alone time (usually consisting of smoking pot while speeding down country roads). It's kind of like my meditation, I can just let my mind rest for a while y'know? :3

(Edited 38 seconds later.)

Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 15 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #132,333

@previous (F)
Yeah, man, sounds good. If only I could drive,
baww i aint fucked in the least ;.;

(Edited 11 seconds later.)

Anonymous F replied with this 15 years ago, 14 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #132,338

@previous (A)
You're more paranoid than Depressionman.

Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 4 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #132,342

@previous (F)
yeah but I also don't care about much either.
Is there a word for that and paranoid together?

Handel !khEOdtKF56 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 21 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #132,353

I know how you feel OP, fuck people. Morons.

hamfist !!mtq555+/1 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 38 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,389

Do you ever feel depressed for having no major reason to be depressed?

Killer Lettuce !!iNo3FkiZx joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,392

@OP
Kill them all.

Green !./UjmbBz7I replied with this 15 years ago, 45 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,431

@previous (Killer Lettuce !!iNo3FkiZx)
It was actually Freud who told me to kill them all.

!poISOnioxc replied with this 15 years ago, 13 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,440

@132,315 (A)
Well, I hope you discover it soon enough.

Ninjj joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,443

OP is a female.

Killer Lettuce !!iNo3FkiZx replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,445

@132,431 (Green !./UjmbBz7I)
Freud did say a lot of weird shit.

dreamworks joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 49 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,495

Image went missing@132,389 (hamfist !!mtq555+/1)
yes i do

hamfist !!mtq555+/1 replied with this 15 years ago, 6 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,501

@previous (dreamworks)
perpetual depression machine

dreamworks replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,506

Image went missing@previous (hamfist !!mtq555+/1)

Ninjj replied with this 15 years ago, 12 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #132,524

@132,501 (hamfist !!mtq555+/1)
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