Topic: What's keeping you from killing yourself?
sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1 started this discussion 15 years ago #7,373
For me it's my parentsLeo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 55 seconds later[^] [v] #128,887
Don't ever let your parents hold you back from following your dreams.
sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1 (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,890
@previous (Leo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ)
If they didn't care I'd do it.
In fact, I kind of wish they were negligent so I could get it over with
If they didn't care I'd do it.
In fact, I kind of wish they were negligent so I could get it over with
Broseph !!fxnDb+Ve4 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 3 seconds later, 2 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,891
survival instinct and the desire to procreate
Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 3 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,892
Life is too good.
Anonymous D double-posted this 15 years ago, 15 seconds later, 4 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,893
Also there's no Minichan in hell.
Leo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ replied with this 15 years ago, 28 seconds later, 4 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,894
@128,890 (sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1)
I am sure they are negligent to a degree. They probably leave you, a suicidal kid, home alone around knives and rope. They shouldn't do that...unless...you don't think... they aren't trying to encourage...nevermind.
I am sure they are negligent to a degree. They probably leave you, a suicidal kid, home alone around knives and rope. They shouldn't do that...unless...you don't think... they aren't trying to encourage...nevermind.
sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1 (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 21 seconds later, 5 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,895
[^_^] !IOdbnXsKDk joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 59 seconds later, 6 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,897
I can't purchase a firearm.
Triptych !!DP4/G/5A6 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 9 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,904
I don't care enough to anymore. Passivity FTW.
Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 11 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,908
because i am more prone to 'suicidal gestures' than actual suicide.
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 13 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,911
Is this a stickybuns impersonation thread?
Leo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 15 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,916
@128,895 (sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1)
Your parents love you and would be devastated if you Lille yourself. Stop being s fag, get laid, and drop the idea of starting a 10000 Maniacs cover band.
Your parents love you and would be devastated if you Lille yourself. Stop being s fag, get laid, and drop the idea of starting a 10000 Maniacs cover band.
sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1 (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 18 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,923
@previous (Leo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ)
> Your parents love you
That's the thing man, I don't want to make them go through that! Otherwise I'd take some of that sweet, sweet 9mm aspirin
> Your parents love you
That's the thing man, I don't want to make them go through that! Otherwise I'd take some of that sweet, sweet 9mm aspirin
Leo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 23 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,929
@previous (sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1)
Well then you care about the feelings of others this you lack the selfishness to kill yourself. Maybe you are just really sad and not suicidal. Try getting laid before you decide to kill yourself. You will find life has more meaning than you think it does
Well then you care about the feelings of others this you lack the selfishness to kill yourself. Maybe you are just really sad and not suicidal. Try getting laid before you decide to kill yourself. You will find life has more meaning than you think it does
sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1 (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 25 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,932
Leo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 28 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,937
sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1 (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 53 seconds later, 29 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,939
Broseph !!fxnDb+Ve4 replied with this 15 years ago, 6 minutes later, 35 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,948
@128,923 (sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1)
For fuck sake, read what he said after he said your parents love you. Your problem is you have atypical antisocial behavior, you're completely withdrawn and it has caused you to become depressed. The depression makes you more withdrawn and gives you even less desire to socialize, which feeds the cycle.
You also don't seem to take care of yourself in terms of hygeine, exercise, or eating right, which is why you're so sickly looking. This is also related to your depression.
All of this probably stems from your sexual deviancy. If you want to be gay, fine. If you want to be transgender, fine. If you want to be a straight furry, fine. The problem is, you can't seem to make up your mind, and in an attempt to convince yourself that you have made up your mind, you overcompensate by doing thing like constantly talking about sucking dick, or trying to act overtly feminine, or trying to act tough, or whatever. You need to find your sexuality, stick to it, and not change it for anyone or anything, and stop worrying about whether people will accept you for who you are. Stop overcompensating and stop faking it.
Once you've done that, focus on graduating high school, whether it's through your online courses or actually going back to school. Either way you need to get out and socialize with people more, make some IRL friends, bathe, get a haircut, exercise, eat some healthy food, get some sun, etc. You'll start to feel better about yourself and you'll kick the depression.
For fuck sake, read what he said after he said your parents love you. Your problem is you have atypical antisocial behavior, you're completely withdrawn and it has caused you to become depressed. The depression makes you more withdrawn and gives you even less desire to socialize, which feeds the cycle.
You also don't seem to take care of yourself in terms of hygeine, exercise, or eating right, which is why you're so sickly looking. This is also related to your depression.
All of this probably stems from your sexual deviancy. If you want to be gay, fine. If you want to be transgender, fine. If you want to be a straight furry, fine. The problem is, you can't seem to make up your mind, and in an attempt to convince yourself that you have made up your mind, you overcompensate by doing thing like constantly talking about sucking dick, or trying to act overtly feminine, or trying to act tough, or whatever. You need to find your sexuality, stick to it, and not change it for anyone or anything, and stop worrying about whether people will accept you for who you are. Stop overcompensating and stop faking it.
Once you've done that, focus on graduating high school, whether it's through your online courses or actually going back to school. Either way you need to get out and socialize with people more, make some IRL friends, bathe, get a haircut, exercise, eat some healthy food, get some sun, etc. You'll start to feel better about yourself and you'll kick the depression.
Leo Vegas !gNoGoD5HzQ replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 37 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #128,951
@128,939 (sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1)
If I was your dad you would not have started this thread because you would be driving me from bar to bar, getting paid to keep the info from your mom.
If I was your dad you would not have started this thread because you would be driving me from bar to bar, getting paid to keep the info from your mom.
Handel !khEOdtKF56 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 41 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #128,958
green joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 28 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #128,976
I don't know where to buy helium.
Falco !PZmcClOUDk joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 22 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #128,977
Nega !aEp48yJmng joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 15 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #128,981
Being dead is boring.
Being alive is interesting.
Being alive is interesting.
The Editor !FuckWtfW8M joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 28 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #128,987
nimj joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #128,990
dutchfag's buttmad
nimj double-posted this 15 years ago, 21 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #128,991
mountainman !4EB6xd.Oos joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 hours later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,071
My complete lack of desire to kill myself prevents me from suicide.
Killer Lettuce !!iNo3FkiZx joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 20 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,083
Not having the urge to kill myself, mainly.
Anonymous Q joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 hour later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,144
Christ, Broseph is the biggest, most presumptuous twat I've seen in a while. All his suggestions are generic, common sense spitback from a Google search for "ways to increase mood". For people who actually suffer from mood disorders, depression can be so crippling that they literally cannot get out of bed in the morning. They want to turn their lives around and see everything in a better light, but when there's no motivation, this seems impossible.
For me, it's my family stopping me as well. I was stupid enough to go all emo on my mom, telling her I didn't see the point of putting myself through life anymore, and she told me that if I went, she'd go with me.
If I ever do an hero, I'd hope that my family would understand that they weren't the cause and that there was nothing they could do to help.
For me, it's my family stopping me as well. I was stupid enough to go all emo on my mom, telling her I didn't see the point of putting myself through life anymore, and she told me that if I went, she'd go with me.
If I ever do an hero, I'd hope that my family would understand that they weren't the cause and that there was nothing they could do to help.
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mountainman !4EB6xd.Oos replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,145
Anonymous Q replied with this 15 years ago, 11 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,153
@previous (mountainman !4EB6xd.Oos)
> >emo detected
> I was stupid enough to go all emo on my mom
I'd already written as much, Cap'n Obvious. ;-}
> >emo detected
> I was stupid enough to go all emo on my mom
I'd already written as much, Cap'n Obvious. ;-}
green replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,154
Handel !khEOdtKF56 replied with this 15 years ago, 16 seconds later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,155
@129,153 (Q)
Do you regret telling your mom?
I'm thinking of telling my mom I'm suicidal, and then telling her I'm gay, or should I do it the other way around.
Do you regret telling your mom?
I'm thinking of telling my mom I'm suicidal, and then telling her I'm gay, or should I do it the other way around.
mountainman !4EB6xd.Oos replied with this 15 years ago, 16 seconds later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,156
Anonymous Q replied with this 15 years ago, 27 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,161
@129,154 (green)
Thanks, green, you're sweet. :) 18, yourself?
@129,155 (Handel !khEOdtKF56)
> Do you regret telling your mom?
Mostly no, since she's encouraging me to see a psychologist again. I don't want to at all, but it's for the best. I don't like her worrying, though, that kills me
> I'm thinking of telling my mom I'm suicidal, and then telling her I'm gay, or should I do it the other way around.
Please do tell her. Both if you can, but the suicidal thing first. I'm sure she'd want to know both. Do you have an OK relationship with her?
Thanks, green, you're sweet. :) 18, yourself?
@129,155 (Handel !khEOdtKF56)
> Do you regret telling your mom?
Mostly no, since she's encouraging me to see a psychologist again. I don't want to at all, but it's for the best. I don't like her worrying, though, that kills me
> I'm thinking of telling my mom I'm suicidal, and then telling her I'm gay, or should I do it the other way around.
Please do tell her. Both if you can, but the suicidal thing first. I'm sure she'd want to know both. Do you have an OK relationship with her?
Handel !khEOdtKF56 replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,166
@previous (Q)
Ya I have a great relationship with her, I plan on telling her very soon about the gay thing actually. I think I might wait a while for the whole suicide thing.I haven't had a "moment" (as I call it) in over 3 months.
Ya I have a great relationship with her, I plan on telling her very soon about the gay thing actually. I think I might wait a while for the whole suicide thing.I haven't had a "moment" (as I call it) in over 3 months.
green replied with this 15 years ago, 4 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,170
@129,161 (Q)
19. Depression is like being stuck in a rut. You'd love to do something, but you can't face seeing people. You have no motivation. And because of this you stay depressed. Worst case scenario is you see no future for yourself. Then you just sort of freeze up and can barely get out of bed :'(
19. Depression is like being stuck in a rut. You'd love to do something, but you can't face seeing people. You have no motivation. And because of this you stay depressed. Worst case scenario is you see no future for yourself. Then you just sort of freeze up and can barely get out of bed :'(
Ryan !PArADOx9ZU joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,174
The fact that all life is beautiful. :')
benny !gmy5qXGyiE joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,175
i dunno
Foxygen !xVulpesUUg joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 10 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,187
Not sure, really.
Probably just too lazy to do it.
Probably just too lazy to do it.
Anonymous Q replied with this 15 years ago, 6 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,204
@129,166 (Handel !khEOdtKF56)
Glad to hear you two have a close relationship--that can make all the difference. Maybe even telling her that you're gay will help with the suicidal thoughts, even? Or are the two not related at all? Either way, good luck! I really hope you tell her soon
@129,170 (green)
I can absolutely relate to everything you say. It's lonely and you feel ashamed of yourself for not living your life like the rest of the world is, but being around other people seems impossible and even the thought brings up overwhelming anxiety.
Glad to hear you two have a close relationship--that can make all the difference. Maybe even telling her that you're gay will help with the suicidal thoughts, even? Or are the two not related at all? Either way, good luck! I really hope you tell her soon
@129,170 (green)
I can absolutely relate to everything you say. It's lonely and you feel ashamed of yourself for not living your life like the rest of the world is, but being around other people seems impossible and even the thought brings up overwhelming anxiety.
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green replied with this 15 years ago, 12 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,214
@previous (Q)
My 'therapist' is going to get me to join an art or walking group. That should lift my mood a bit.
My 'therapist' is going to get me to join an art or walking group. That should lift my mood a bit.
mountainman !4EB6xd.Oos replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,216
So do you like BOTDF?
Anonymous Q replied with this 15 years ago, 7 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,237
@129,214 (green)
Nice. I hope it does! You should report back/make a thread if you find it does help your mood.
Nice. I hope it does! You should report back/make a thread if you find it does help your mood.
Handel !khEOdtKF56 replied with this 15 years ago, 12 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,257
@129,204 (Q)
Anyone looking at me from the outside would think the two are related but they're not. My mother is well aware of my sexual orientation, she just doesn't have the courage to ask me. I highly doubt she'll react badly, I'm only telling her to put her out of her misery.
Anyone looking at me from the outside would think the two are related but they're not. My mother is well aware of my sexual orientation, she just doesn't have the courage to ask me. I highly doubt she'll react badly, I'm only telling her to put her out of her misery.
Anonymous Q replied with this 15 years ago, 11 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,266
@previous (Handel !khEOdtKF56)
Ah, I see, so you're just waiting for an appropriate time to broach the subject? Sounds like a good plan to me.
Ah, I see, so you're just waiting for an appropriate time to broach the subject? Sounds like a good plan to me.
Broseph !!fxnDb+Ve4 replied with this 15 years ago, 1 hour later, 11 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,303
@129,144 (Q)
I didn't Google any of that, shithead. Of course any good advice anyone gives is probably going to turn up on Google somewhere. At least I'm trying to help.
I didn't Google any of that, shithead. Of course any good advice anyone gives is probably going to turn up on Google somewhere. At least I'm trying to help.
advi !!3gpAcg/hF joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,305
My desire to live?
Syntax joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 14 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,308
Great Sex and or Runners High solves all of life's problems.
ALL!!
ALL!!
sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1 (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 16 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,313
@129,170 (green)
iknowthatfeel :'(
@previous (Syntax)
Maybe I need to rephrase that question:
wood U kil urSELF????
iknowthatfeel :'(
@previous (Syntax)
Maybe I need to rephrase that question:
wood U kil urSELF????
Syntax replied with this 15 years ago, 21 minutes later, 12 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,325
@previous (sexual aerosol !!mtq555+/1)No way no how. How am I going to find out how the next Star Trek TV series ends?
Upcoming festival for me is next Fridays Wine Cheese and Chocolate festival and this is the space where its going 2B Full Orchestra to dance2 albeit no clue about that Orchestra yet 100's of friends food Chocolate Cheeses and Music and a great space and weather forecast is for Purrrrfect warm evening
A tiny view of space Festival will b in and its a fun(ds)raiser for women's history museum.
Anonymous W joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 hour later, 13 hours after the original post[^] [v] #129,362
Hamfist's mom keeps me going, I rely on her to make rather profitable BBW interracial porn.