My last waffle and my last appeal.
When I started the real news , it was with an unimaginable amount of failed projects "under my belt," and I was already unspeakably exhausted mentally. Despite this, I forced myself to really spend my entire soul into this project because I at that time had realized how vital it was to "enlighten people". While I was still extremely naive in my opinion of the "resistance".
During these five years (before the RN was at least a year before a prototype that I did as part of another failed project, but probably none but I used), I really put a lot of time, energy and spirit that the all for me means possible try to get information about the ongoing genocide, and to influence the sources "in the right direction" in different ways.
Unfortunately, it is increasingly clear that both "national" and "Sweden Friends" had a completely different mentality and approach, which never or very rarely spoke clearly and was honest with themselves and each other. Slowly it dawned on me that many sources either operated directly by the Jews, nor was paid by the same. The rest was with very few exceptions confused idiots who never wrote / said / did something of value, often seriously misleading headlines.
In the end I ceased completely to follow the flow other than the purely necessary checks now and then to reassure me that things still work (sources changed maniacal about everything all the time and required frequent manual fixes various kinds). By now I felt physically sick to see what people voted up, and completely lost respect for both sources and users.
A genuine thanks go to he who called themselves the "Rough Jobs Comforter," which for a time appeared and until the end helped actively to basically manage the entire Genocide Media (extreme amounts of work behind the scenes with the service, especially considering how few who ever used it) and found new sources of RN and helped to tell when they died or changed flow addresses without pointing and the like. You are largely the reason that I held out as long as I did, and our internal "ping-pong spirit" was a nice collaboration that, to me, proves what the Aryans can accomplish when they help each other.
Unfortunately, he was quite unique, and the rest seemed to do everything possible to remain silent kill the service, likely to terrible I was behind it. Just as people in general are concerned about national far more about who done something than what has been done. It offended me a thousand times worse than I ever did back (at least by me), but no matter how it was got the result that I ever lost respect for all those people who in the end for me just appeared rigmarole idiots.
The last few days I have felt extreme sorrow, strong feelings of guilt and felt like a real traitor, even though, in my opinion, I am someone who has been betrayed. Worth noting is quite clear that I do not "become PK" or something like that. No female has (unfortunately) suddenly appeared in my life and given me an ultimatum and forced me to choose between her or RN, and no Jews have visited me with money bags to bribe me to put down. Nor has any AFA rabble put a knife to the throat against me, or the like. Some of the main reasons (I will right now) that I had to put down are:
1. I think it is a dangerous waste of time and energy to imagine that you can change something by playing around in the Jew's sandbox (the Internet).
2. Malicious spam sources controlled / created by the enemy that just poisons the minds of people with nonsense.
3. Virtually non-existent traffic and ordspridning. (Yes, it was probably "the last straw".)
4. No sympathy from (almost) any of it to put his soul in trying to convey.
5. Could no longer endorse the service name, slogan or content.
6. Felt and feel mentally, spiritually and physically totally exhausted and as if I choke on all bullshit these sources pumps out and as people sit and waste their precious time in these last, fateful hour.
7. Would no longer in any way be involved in further waste of time and energy of all those who are really in this now should prepare for comprehensive, armed struggle.
I really tried my best. I can really honestly say. Unfortunately, my best totally inadequate, and this I have realized on such a deep level that this closure is not "just" moving RN, but my continued use of the Internet and trying to "push" anything in this hopeless, endless space where you can shouting himself hoarse without anyone ever hear a beep. Moreover, it will only get worse and worse for any "controversial" sites continue to exist, and I have every reason to believe that the RN had been harassed in more ways than just through denial of service attacks, if it had continued. Especially if it had ever grown, which obviously never happened.
Despite my harsh words in the last RN text, I feel a real sadness and despair over the situation. There were actually a few people out there that make sense and really did well. I thank those who contributed and helped me when I needed it the most, even though you probably only bother you that the service would remain. Believe me when I say that I am genuinely sorry that I had to close down. For there was no real choice, like everything else in life. It was just not long, by so many important causes. I felt I was about to go crazy for real, and it has not changed in any way. This is really a nightmare on so many different levels.
I should now announce that I will start a radical, physical battle group whose sole purpose is to save the Swedes by force, to really emphasize that I'm serious, but not a fan, I dare it. Although I hate this "life" I still unspeakably afraid will cease to exist. I can not understand how someone can manage to take his life, but admire somehow their "courage".
Probably I will rot away in solitude, and soon dreamed back to the "wonderful" days when I could write a RN text and few people could agree. That is how it works - it can always get worse, and it will also ...
I could babble on this amount at any time, but I can not really anymore. It is obvious that very few people can relate to what I know, and the rest see it as a sick person's waffle.
I realize this may sound like an afterthought, but to put down the RN and my 'online' efforts for has been for me a strong symbolic value because it proves that I am serious about the claim that the Internet is the enemy sandbox / aquarium / playhouse, and that I spent so much of my life trying to understand me just turned out to be a big scam. Yet distraction.
No one will take that on more than they listened to anything I've written, but it's something I really want to emphasize it is that Swedes MUST stop hanging on an electronic network of growing censorship in our physical survival is at stake. How sick as it sounds, and how unreasonable unlikely it may be that this will ever happen, the Swedes begin to work together and clean tangibly grasp things.
My appeal is perhaps most like the Nordic resistance movement , which after all has by far the largest organization capability (which is not saying much, but still). I ask you to really try to think about the brand, despite the enormous risks, and if possible take a radically different style and mentality. It is probably laughable pathetic to sit and write things without himself doing something, but I really feel that it is the only option and that it must somehow be brought.
I regret deeply and very seriously my total inability to everything that matters. Although I can hardly sit up longer, and never have been brave for five cents, I am bombarded by extremely strong revolutionary sentiments. As if these feelings is really meant for a completely different person, who both have the strength, courage and ability to reach people. Why when I get these? Probably because God is sick in the head.
I also want to ask Hitler for forgiveness for my cursed inability. You really were a true modern hero, and I am ashamed of my genuine and all our actions, which appear as a mockery of what you did. Nothing would make me happier than to suddenly encumbered with your abilities, but there remains no doubt a pipe dream. Just so with any sensible person, I am satisfied.
If anyone actually sees this and does not already have removed all bookmarks and links and forgotten RN I really want to ask you for a moment pretend that this is not only confused waffle from a sick person, but indeed a genuine, albeit desperate, attempt to self-crawl my way out of this morass of total passivity. I will probably fail, but there is no choice but to try the real thing now.
Hopefully we'll see you on the battlefield and not in prison. Getting there is extremely blurred, and I really have no idea how to even start with this enormous task, or how to cope with any of the required when I can not even [the] live now - I just know it must occur on Swedes / Aryans want to survive and avoid living who bullied, terrorized slaves.
Right now it feels like I'm just going to wither away in a corner, shaking with rage and impotence, while noise and terror grow ever higher and more intense, but although this is the most likely scenario, even after this "prank" would not have been able to live with myself if this project had continued, given the circumstances.
Hope you understand and agree with, and do not see myself as a "rasförrädare", even though I wrote that I will do "anything" to get out of this hell. In my view, really like a hell. I was and am as pissed off as desperate, mixed and varied, and it makes me furious to think about what we "enlightened" people are doing while we allow it to be as close as just outside the window and into the stairwell last.
This text will remain until the host computer expires. Then, it is completely out of my Internet projects, and I strongly advise you to follow my example and force you to take hold in the real world vital issues instead of throwing away one day to this nonsense.
Hail victory.
(Edited 4 minutes later.)
Hey maybe we can report him to Swedish thought police and get him v& for hate speech