Topic: Attn Green
Wildchild !NvEXY0NyQI started this discussion 9 years ago #58,200
I still feel ashamed about my behavior towards you, and I want you to know that there is nothing in the post that I used against you that you should feel embarassed or ashamed about. I also exaggerated to you in order to explain my behavior. The social experiment was an exaggeration, but I did want to test around with being callous on here to those I perceived as being aggressive towards me. You deserve a proper explanation for my behavior and I feel that I should provide it.
There were more than a few users who were acting incredibly aggressive towards me, with or without perceived reason. I mistakenly or unmistakeably associated you with those users, and therefore decided to act what I perceived to be in a similar manner in term. I knew that you weren't the anonymous poster who was impersonating me, but you were the only one who I could use to "set an example" in term. I perceived that you and everyone else were attacking me instead of just having a bit of fun and hazing me, so I reacted in term. It was most likely my perception on the forum and the culture that was wrong.
The culture in the last forum that I was a part of was such that you gathered and saved information on people to use against them and in terms need to focus on protecting your privacy in term.
I can guarantee you, that you aren't alone in your feelings in the post I used against you, that a handful of members here have felt just as hopeless, and alone. I have felt the same way as you have mentioned in the post and have dealt with sucidal ideation and depression all my life, which in a way, knowing how it feels doesn't make my behavior any better.
I want you to know that things can get better, they don't have to be hopeless, and while it was extremely wrong for me to lash out at you, using a personal post against you, there's nothing in that post that you should feel embarassed, ashamed, or guilty about and you are definitely not alone. It may not seem like it, but things can get better. It takes time and effort.
Don't give up.
There were more than a few users who were acting incredibly aggressive towards me, with or without perceived reason. I mistakenly or unmistakeably associated you with those users, and therefore decided to act what I perceived to be in a similar manner in term. I knew that you weren't the anonymous poster who was impersonating me, but you were the only one who I could use to "set an example" in term. I perceived that you and everyone else were attacking me instead of just having a bit of fun and hazing me, so I reacted in term. It was most likely my perception on the forum and the culture that was wrong.
The culture in the last forum that I was a part of was such that you gathered and saved information on people to use against them and in terms need to focus on protecting your privacy in term.
I can guarantee you, that you aren't alone in your feelings in the post I used against you, that a handful of members here have felt just as hopeless, and alone. I have felt the same way as you have mentioned in the post and have dealt with sucidal ideation and depression all my life, which in a way, knowing how it feels doesn't make my behavior any better.
I want you to know that things can get better, they don't have to be hopeless, and while it was extremely wrong for me to lash out at you, using a personal post against you, there's nothing in that post that you should feel embarassed, ashamed, or guilty about and you are definitely not alone. It may not seem like it, but things can get better. It takes time and effort.
Don't give up.
The Doctor !7MHPahvoGY joined in and replied with this 9 years ago, 1 minute later[^] [v] #745,595
beckyderp !yDoooooooo joined in and replied with this 9 years ago, 16 seconds later, 1 minute after the original post[^] [v] #745,596
what
Wildchild !NvEXY0NyQI (OP) replied with this 9 years ago, 2 minutes later, 3 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #745,597
@previous (beckyderp !yDoooooooo)
> what
I used an personal post as a cheap attack against Green, and I'm taking responsibility for my actions and providing an explanation on why I did what I did because I feel that he deserves one.
> what
I used an personal post as a cheap attack against Green, and I'm taking responsibility for my actions and providing an explanation on why I did what I did because I feel that he deserves one.
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Wildchild !NvEXY0NyQI (OP) double-posted this 9 years ago, 29 minutes later, 32 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #745,599
I also want Green to know that his feelings aren't weird and that plenty of people have been in a similar situation and have felt similar. I can admit that I have dealt with similar thoughts of suicide and hopelessness since I was in 2nd grade, therefore it was incredibly hypocritical for me to use a personal post with those themes as an easy attack against him.
Green isn't a bad person, as much as it may seem, you aren't doomed to hopelessness, and I hope that Green is able to find the strength and courage to move past the hurdles and be happy, with himself and his life. It can be a long and hard road, but you can obtain peace and happiness.
Green isn't a bad person, as much as it may seem, you aren't doomed to hopelessness, and I hope that Green is able to find the strength and courage to move past the hurdles and be happy, with himself and his life. It can be a long and hard road, but you can obtain peace and happiness.
The Doctor !7MHPahvoGY replied with this 9 years ago, 2 minutes later, 34 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #745,600
Wildchild !NvEXY0NyQI (OP) replied with this 9 years ago, 1 minute later, 36 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #745,601
@previous (The Doctor !7MHPahvoGY)
> No one here thinks that Green is a bad person. Stop projecting.
I meant that to directed Green, I don't think he is a bad person, and he isn't deserving of the hopelessness he feels.
> No one here thinks that Green is a bad person. Stop projecting.
I meant that to directed Green, I don't think he is a bad person, and he isn't deserving of the hopelessness he feels.
Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 9 years ago, 2 hours later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #745,626
Keep bringing this up every week or so. Just in case he forgets about it