Topic: my fetish is ruining my life and my relationship.. Idk what to do anymore

Anonymous A started this discussion 10 years ago #53,822

Please no mean comments. This is the hardest thing i’ve ever had to tell someone. I well aware how shitty of a person I am and how stupid this is. I hate on myself enough.

I never talk about this because I hate it, but I have to because I think its causing me to abuse my husband. I have a “fart fetish” less sexual more like something I just really like. but I only like it when he does it.

When I told him about it he made fun of me. Which ever since made me feel bad about myself whenever I’m around him. I ended up telling him later it was a joke and he believed me but still to this day he taunts me saying I like to play with poop.

Since I told him we haven’t been the same. He used to not care and fart in front of my whenever he felt like it. He even pooped in front of me which I liked only because it was cool he trusted me plus its funny. Now he rarely does these things and when he does I feel bad about myself and I don’t know how to react because if he knew I liked those things he’d think I’m gross and make fun of me.

This is where things get harder to talk about. Lately my husband is on a new diet where to only time he has gas is when he has to shit and he’s been shitting every single morning before work which he never used to do. Lately I’ve been internally getting mad/frustrated. I stop him from using the bathroom sometimes. and usually he doesn’t pick up that I’m mad because he shit. he usually just wonders why I’m upset because i don’t tell him.

When I get mad at it I usually put some music on and tune him out. and he usually pushes me to tell him whats wrong or to talk to him again. I know, its bad and its not right. but I just can’t help being upset as much as I don’t want to be like that. He’s kinda been picking up that I get mad when he shits now and I think thats made it worse for me.

Its to the point now where I feel so ashamed of myself for being mad over that and also just feeling shitty about myself in general that I just want to avoid him. If I’m not near him I can’t be upset anymore. I don’t want to abuse my husband. I know he deserves better. and its stupid to be mad at someone for needing to use the washroom.

I’ve tried to break up with him because i can’t deal with myself and I don’t want him to have to go through what I put him through. but when I do he says I’m being selfish and that I need to just get over what ever it is thats going on. And its not that easy for me especially with the way I feel about myself.

I know this is really stupid and I’m embarrassed I’m even posting this. I appreciate anyone who can take this seriously thanks. Sorry for the long read!

Anonymous B joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 10 minutes later[^] [v] #700,827

I hope this is copy and paste and you didn't actually write this out, Matt

Anonymous C joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 1 hour later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #700,833

@previous (B)

Of course he did...that is why he is the third greatest troll.

DasSheeple joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 17 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #700,834

I liked MC more when fatfuck was in China, and China was banned.

Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 50 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,840

I'm a girl. I don't understand these responses. If you're just going to be mean, I will delete the post.

Anonymous E joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,841

Tl/dr

Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 5 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,844

How do I delete this post?

Anonymous B replied with this 10 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,847

@previous (A)
Delete system 32

Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 19 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,849

This post has left me speechless and I like to be peed on.

adam djenson replied with this 10 years ago, 3 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,850

I'm gay lol

FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 2 hours later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,873

@700,844 (A)
rm -rf

bhutto joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 48 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,887

divorce is the only answer

FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI replied with this 10 years ago, 37 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,906

@previous (bhutto)
well, there's always the kill option.

Anonymous I joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 36 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,914

Like, seriously, I literally made this topic 4 and a half years ago.

Anonymous J joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 4 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,917

Stand up and tell him he's in fart world now and start masturbating

Anonymous K joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 13 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #700,921

@700,844 (A)
Hahahaha! No way out now!

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