Topic: Emotions and thoughts swirling into something concrete
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E started this discussion 10 years ago #52,348
My thoughts run wild of my future and my emotions replace my feelings, changing each hour.
Paranoia, hope, calmness and happiness is a daily occurrence but not really because I'm lying. This is a hit and run, and I run because I feel like it.
Paranoia, hope, calmness and happiness is a daily occurrence but not really because I'm lying. This is a hit and run, and I run because I feel like it.
Anonymous B joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 5 minutes later[^] [v] #682,570
Timber African American !faggot joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 2 minutes later, 7 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #682,574
@OP
You make less sense than both an 80 year poster with a serious learning disability and a severely psychotic young man with substance abuse issues and a fondness for word salad.
I still like you, though.
You make less sense than both an 80 year poster with a serious learning disability and a severely psychotic young man with substance abuse issues and a fondness for word salad.
I still like you, though.
FuckAlms !vX8K53rFBI joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 3 minutes later, 11 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #682,582
But is that "something", reality?
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 42 minutes later, 53 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #682,661
@682,574 (Timber African American !faggot)
You know, things are escalating in school and people are afraid of me.
But the funniest thing is, I'm terrified of them
You know, things are escalating in school and people are afraid of me.
But the funniest thing is, I'm terrified of them
button joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 1 minute later, 55 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #682,665
Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 48 seconds later, 56 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #682,666
@682,661 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
> the funniest thing is
So what happened. You said you were staying away from her for many a month.
> the funniest thing is
So what happened. You said you were staying away from her for many a month.
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 2 minutes later, 58 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #682,669
button replied with this 10 years ago, 1 minute later, 59 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #682,672
@previous (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
> I blamed minichan for my behavior in school but rethinking it, it doesn't make sense
Omg
What did you do
How could you blame a web site
Haha tell us
> I blamed minichan for my behavior in school but rethinking it, it doesn't make sense
Omg
What did you do
How could you blame a web site
Haha tell us
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 10 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,681
@previous (button)
I was in a really shitty mood okay? Minichan wasn't exactly helping and my mind was all full of weird hateful thoughts.
So I'm on my way to the bathroom and im inside the unisex public bathroom, but the social worker is there and she grabs me by my arm and suddenly attacks me with all these personal questions.
So I mirrored her behavior onto her and instead I grab her and shake her while whispering "I'm okay"
It's bizarre behavior, i know, but i live a bizarre life so it was totally justified
I was in a really shitty mood okay? Minichan wasn't exactly helping and my mind was all full of weird hateful thoughts.
So I'm on my way to the bathroom and im inside the unisex public bathroom, but the social worker is there and she grabs me by my arm and suddenly attacks me with all these personal questions.
So I mirrored her behavior onto her and instead I grab her and shake her while whispering "I'm okay"
It's bizarre behavior, i know, but i live a bizarre life so it was totally justified
Timber African American !faggot replied with this 10 years ago, 6 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,688
@previous (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
What happened after that? You can't end a story after the climax cutie.
What happened after that? You can't end a story after the climax cutie.
Anonymous B replied with this 10 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,690
@682,681 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
> she grabs me by my arm and suddenly attacks me
There could be a truly great finish to that part of your story. Unless she was a land whale.
> she grabs me by my arm and suddenly attacks me
There could be a truly great finish to that part of your story. Unless she was a land whale.
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 12 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,695
@682,688 (Timber African American !faggot)
@previous (B)
Well, i expected fear or anger and I was prepared to turn that into my own benefit. If she was afraid i could behave even more freely with special perks. If she was angry it would be even better because I would produce guilt within her by exaggerated harm done by her anger towards me.
Instead her face filled with sadness, not knowing how to deal with that I just let go of her. Now when I call in sick, the teachers aren't friendly. In fact, they sound hostile.
Which means I carry a knife in school, and suffer from trauma as i pay attention to my thoughts. One time I thought I was moments away from being sacrificed in a pagan ritual, it was very vivid.
@previous (B)
Well, i expected fear or anger and I was prepared to turn that into my own benefit. If she was afraid i could behave even more freely with special perks. If she was angry it would be even better because I would produce guilt within her by exaggerated harm done by her anger towards me.
Instead her face filled with sadness, not knowing how to deal with that I just let go of her. Now when I call in sick, the teachers aren't friendly. In fact, they sound hostile.
Which means I carry a knife in school, and suffer from trauma as i pay attention to my thoughts. One time I thought I was moments away from being sacrificed in a pagan ritual, it was very vivid.
Nexus !jNexusRe/. joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 6 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,703
Ever since I transitioned I have had a whirlwind of emotions. I don't see anything the same way anymore.
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,709
Big Daddy Derek !Uvm54ORbmo joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 18 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,710
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,712
Nexus !jNexusRe/. replied with this 10 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,713
@682,709 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
March 15th was the actual day I started hormones. I had them since june 6th of 2015 however.
March 15th was the actual day I started hormones. I had them since june 6th of 2015 however.
Big Daddy Derek !Uvm54ORbmo replied with this 10 years ago, 8 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,716
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,718
@682,713 (Nexus !jNexusRe/.)
Seems like you made a decision on march the 15th out of necessity. It will pass, dealing with something so serious for so long is sort of like a habit or a custom.
Now, you are just readjusting
Seems like you made a decision on march the 15th out of necessity. It will pass, dealing with something so serious for so long is sort of like a habit or a custom.
Now, you are just readjusting
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) double-posted this 10 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #682,722
Anonymous I joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 31 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #682,767
@682,681 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
@682,695 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
Uh, wow. That's some pretty serious stuff
I'm going to try to stop interacting with you, from the point onwards. I don't want to exacerbate such a sensitive situation.
@682,695 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
Uh, wow. That's some pretty serious stuff
I'm going to try to stop interacting with you, from the point onwards. I don't want to exacerbate such a sensitive situation.
Nexus !jNexusRe/. replied with this 10 years ago, 8 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #682,783
@682,718 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
I was exposed to some hardcore child pornography and it fucked me up hard. I realized I was so disgusted with my gender that they would do such a thing to a child just because they want to get off. It was bad. I had a rough couple weeks afterwards.
I was exposed to some hardcore child pornography and it fucked me up hard. I realized I was so disgusted with my gender that they would do such a thing to a child just because they want to get off. It was bad. I had a rough couple weeks afterwards.
Timber African American !faggot replied with this 10 years ago, 22 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #682,784
Antikhristos !M6R0eWkIpk joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 49 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #682,824
@682,695 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
> One time I thought I was moments away from being sacrificed in a pagan ritual, it was very vivid.
Do you have any idea what sort of bother it is rounding up another sacrifice at the last minute? :\
> One time I thought I was moments away from being sacrificed in a pagan ritual, it was very vivid.
Do you have any idea what sort of bother it is rounding up another sacrifice at the last minute? :\
button joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 12 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #682,829
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adam djensen joined in and replied with this 10 years ago, 9 hours later, 12 hours after the original post[^] [v] #683,063
Consider getting a psychiatrist and listening to them.
Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E (OP) replied with this 10 years ago, 5 hours later, 18 hours after the original post[^] [v] #683,099
@682,829 (button)
@682,830 (button)
@previous (adam djensen)
For spinning a false story out of complete boredom? IT WAS A LIE why do you guys always have to be like?
@682,830 (button)
@previous (adam djensen)
For spinning a false story out of complete boredom? IT WAS A LIE why do you guys always have to be like?
adam djensen replied with this 10 years ago, 6 minutes later, 18 hours after the original post[^] [v] #683,113
Timber African American !faggot replied with this 10 years ago, 2 minutes later, 18 hours after the original post[^] [v] #683,117
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adam djensen replied with this 10 years ago, 1 day later, 2 days after the original post[^] [v] #683,680
@683,099 (Not Denmark guy !jJEom8Ii3E)
Also I did not mean to come across as mean or whatever, i just think you would benefit from talking with someone
Also I did not mean to come across as mean or whatever, i just think you would benefit from talking with someone