Minichan

Haselgrove,

You seem to have missed the message somewhere down the line, and you still think you can change how I view myself to the one aspect of it that has remained constant over time.
When I said “I have other plans when I move there, but I renege on telling lest fear of the psychiatric ramifications”, what happens? I wasn't wrong, was I? This pseudo-diagnostic fiction is then concocted ex-nihilo, in order to mobilize a barrage of abuse barely disguised under the veneer of psychtherapeutic “treatment” wherein this'll be used a conduit to my abuse, by denying me of my own convictions. To which degree there is something else problematic to the criterion you'd abused in rationalizing such a diagnosis. It would've required, in any case, my uncertainty, and my transience over time, when there was actually only ever my certainty, and my consistency, internally speaking, over time; you'd mistaken my assent to prescriptivism as acceptance of myself as currently presented, and you'd miss the point, once more, of my fear of what would happen had I not. Refer to the above-quote.
The idea that I would eventually at any point cave in to your unreasonable demand for my capitulation here is incorrect, and as such, you had no remit to ordering Kenneth to do what he had; it speaks contrarily to your proclamation which had punctuated our last encounter, for somebody so “non-judgemental”, many iterative jumps with no basis in fact and a playing of the God of the gaps were made to reach your conclusion. It's hurtful, though you're incapable of seeing that and I suspected as much as a vengeance-induced desire to see my comeuppance, so you would wish to make me sick to my reservation's core.
You're desperate to believe anything to the contrary of what I've told you, which is the professional equivalent of plugging your fingers inside your ear-canals and shouting recalcitrantly like a child in the hope your dismissal and frequent-enough external reinforcement will make it disappear rather than just disgust, traumatize and upset me more. The very thought of what's about to happen is enough of a sick sort of inverse-anticipation to which my trepidation leaves me writhing in fear about what will happen do I agree to this clandestine conversion.
Since you have ruined me forever already in this regard, I ask to be discharged from your clinic, and to cancel a pointless referral whose purpose I've now premonitioned after 6 months' continuous meditation. I'm not acquiescing to torture tacticry on the proviso of its veneer under medical legitimacy. I understand full well that you seek vengeance for a number of things under the pretence of a concern, October 2015's incident being among those things, but it's no excuse to go spiting me, condescending my capacity to formulate deep-seated internal perceptions about myself independently (think of how long it has been since I'd part, and to be frankly, how long it was before I'd met, Walter, that this has endured). To think you can overwrite these without it accruing in more trauma is a notion that frankly sickens me. I don't care what your Jewish Talmudeaically-inspired diagnostic manuals say about the matter or what a priori conclusions you've come to without hearing much of a word from me on the matter, nevertheless, my instinct on the matter has endured and I will go to the ends of the Earth to circumvent your permanent moratorium on what it was I'd felt I'd needed in a systemically-endorsed betrayal by my own “homeland”, though such that it is not, genetically speaking, anyway, I can't say that this comes to my surprise, either. (It is, to speak, a reinforcement of my political convictions.)
You may have extreme disdain for my political positions, but that doesn't excuse what you've done either. They are not inconsistent. Conservatism arose as a response to my betrayal, and abuses I'd rather not mention, at Occupy by the leftists there, such that it had been the emotional impetus for my drive to the right; besides, before adorning Marxism in insipidly adolescent rebellion, it was my familial upbringing (a remnant of my mother's own raising, before down-mobilizing the economic strata considerably after leaving home; she had, since my childhood, shall I say, degenerated). Trolls targeting me have shown me your Facebook profile – without resorting to ad hominem attacks – the letter was somewhat replete with them, but understandably, you'd made trusting you difficult with this dissonance between your reported non-judgementalness and your colluded actions – it's clear where you lie on that sort of spectrum and, as such, what kind of biases had affected your decision. Nor are my beliefs on the relationship between the sort of neurosexual characteristics conducive to the good rule of the state, and my view of the ones internal to me irrespective of my purported make-up, inconsistent; strong rule is that of nature (cf. Hitler's Aristocratic principle), just as natural as the solidity of this aspect of my self you've sought to destroy; duplicitous rule, where the strength is affected by the scathingly macabre brow-beating of the bureaucratic nomenclatura and subjugation of the populace to fear, is a socialist contrivance Matriarchs rely on to cement their control in the absence of convincing sway.
Lastly, you've quite clearly been taking tips from an anonymous stalker down your phone-line, as I quote the admission by the aforesaid here (censored for my continued safety from psychiatric censure):
[SCREENSHOT OF INTROMAN'S QUOTE HERE, GO TO THE LINK ON MY BLOG ON THE 2ND MOST RECENT HASELGROVE ARTICLE]
It's extremely unprofessional, and this is why I don't think I can get anything other than a negligent, at the best scenario, or an abusive, at the worst and closer to the actual scenario, treatment from here; the professional relationship is compromised and due to this man's actions, so it would hold departmentally-wide. I can only hope for my life work's investment (its detail was briefly discussed in the last correspondence had you read it), even do I live effectively dead to your undeservingly thankless “care”, I will bring dint to the hegemonical matriarchate that had caused all of the above.