Topic: How often do you get suicidal thoughts, and how vivid do they get?
stickybuns !bENfolDsOU started this discussion 15 years ago #5,163
I'm just curious if a lot of other people get them, and how bad they do.
Green !pFNWNYROxA joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later[^] [v] #91,012
A lot recently.
Foxer !FANATICibM joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 34 seconds later, 2 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,013
Very frequently, and quite vivid.
brie !OudrPWaUDQ joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 55 seconds later, 3 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,014
Missing the prom is the leading cause of teen suicide in america, if you are getting suicidal thoughts, maybe you should reconsider skipping it.
stickybuns !bENfolDsOU (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 40 seconds later, 3 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,015
@91,013 (Foxer !FANATICibM)
How vivid? Did you ever (without really thinking about it) start setting things up (finding pills, strength-testing setups with belts/ropes, etc)?
How vivid? Did you ever (without really thinking about it) start setting things up (finding pills, strength-testing setups with belts/ropes, etc)?
Foxer !FANATICibM replied with this 15 years ago, 18 seconds later, 4 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,016
Foxer !FANATICibM double-posted this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 7 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,018
@91,015 (stickybuns !bENfolDsOU)
Very large, very detailed scenarios thought out.
I don't set things up, but I do think sometimes about how using a certain thing or another would work.
Very large, very detailed scenarios thought out.
I don't set things up, but I do think sometimes about how using a certain thing or another would work.
ok cat boy joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 51 seconds later, 7 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,019
SQUARED :3 !L.....AlN. joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 6 seconds later, 8 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,020
I'm not very happy with my life TBH, but I don't think I'll become an hero any-time soon
Green !pFNWNYROxA replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 9 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,022
@91,018 (Foxer !FANATICibM)
Do you think about it before sleeping? Somehow it gets me to sleep quicker.
Do you think about it before sleeping? Somehow it gets me to sleep quicker.
Schwarzenegger !!uADnUIkPw joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 3 seconds later, 9 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,023
Sometimes I think of death as unending peace. I would like that very much. I don't get suicidal thoughts often, they come once in a blue moon though. Not because lolmylifesux but because living seems pointless.
Foxer !FANATICibM replied with this 15 years ago, 47 seconds later, 10 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,025
Green !pFNWNYROxA replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 11 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,027
Schwarzenegger !!uADnUIkPw replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 14 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,029
Green !pFNWNYROxA replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 16 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,032
Schwarzenegger !!uADnUIkPw replied with this 15 years ago, 54 seconds later, 17 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,034
@previous (Green !pFNWNYROxA)
It does. But I'm not ready to die.
What about you? What's stopping you?
It does. But I'm not ready to die.
What about you? What's stopping you?
Green !pFNWNYROxA replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 18 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #91,037
Bobby2Sox !dinhUJfbqA joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 hour later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #91,064
Dictated.
I recently rolled my wheelchair in front of a bus. The idiot stopped and told me to get out of the f**king way.
I recently rolled my wheelchair in front of a bus. The idiot stopped and told me to get out of the f**king way.
Homestar !RUNNERV7vk joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 10 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #91,065
A lot.
The problem with death, though, is that no one knows what happens. What if what happens is even worse than THIS existence?
The problem with death, though, is that no one knows what happens. What if what happens is even worse than THIS existence?
Anonymous J joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 14 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #91,069
About 9 years ago I was sitting alone in my apartment and was very depressed and strung out on amphetamines and tranquilizers. For some inexplicable reason I took a plastic coat hanger from off the floor and pulled it over my head allowing the narrow part to press against the artery in my neck. I sat down naked in front of a door and hooked the other end over the door knob and sunk down onto the floor effectively cutting blood flow into my head. Several seconds passed that I don't remember (nor how many) then suddenly I awoke gasping for air desperately trying to escape the darkness that had so quickly enveloped me. I fell in a heap on the floor, crying and scared --I had been dying, and in the midst of it I clawed my way back up and somehow avoided a horribly embarrassing suicide. It would have been 'accidental' as my plan was not to actually do it, but the speed at which it 'worked' had taken me by surprise. The next day I faced family, friends and co-workers and had to casually explain away the marks on my throat as having come from 'a fall.' I couldn't come up with any better reason for two slightly dark red marks on my neck.
Killer Lettuce !!iNo3FkiZx joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 9 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,074
Well, this is morbid. Have some patriot cat.stickybuns !bENfolDsOU (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 hour later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,108
Anonymous J replied with this 15 years ago, 13 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,116
@previous (stickybuns !bENfolDsOU)
I did. It'll kill you homer, but I did jolt awake and sit the fuck up to save my god damned life. Imagine that. One more bar, maybe one more shot of whiskey and I might not have made it back from that deep hole I slipped into. That was the last time I ever toyed with suicide. But I'm quite certain that if there are parallel dimensions in quite a few of them I just slumped down and died.
I did. It'll kill you homer, but I did jolt awake and sit the fuck up to save my god damned life. Imagine that. One more bar, maybe one more shot of whiskey and I might not have made it back from that deep hole I slipped into. That was the last time I ever toyed with suicide. But I'm quite certain that if there are parallel dimensions in quite a few of them I just slumped down and died.
Triptych !!DP4/G/5A6 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 hours later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,218
Hmm. I used to imagine detailed scenarios. In most situations, my mind would wander and I would imagine how to commit suicide. And sometimes I would do it like a murder. Make the scene as clean as possible, somehow get rid of my own body.
I still do, but I'm not suicidal. I just like to imagine the scenarios.
I still do, but I'm not suicidal. I just like to imagine the scenarios.
Anonymous M joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 24 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,230
Meowth joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 15 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,235
When I die, fuck it. I wanna go to hell, 'cause I'm a piece of shit. It ain't hard to fuckin' tell. It don't make sense, goin' to heaven with the goodie-goodies. Dressed in white, I like black Tim's and black hoodies. God will probably have me on some real strict shit; no sleepin' all day, no gettin my dick licked. Hangin' with the goodie-goodies loungin' in paradise. Fuck that shit! I wanna tote guns and shoot dice. All my life, I been considered as the worst. Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse. Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion. I know my mother wished she got a fuckin' abortion. She don't even love me like she did when I was younger. Suckin' on her chest just to stop my fuckin' hunger. I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes? Forgive me for my disrespect; forgive me for my lies. My babies' mothers eight months, her little sister's two. Who's to blame for both of them? I swear to God, I just want to slit my wrists and end this bullshit. Throw the magnum to my head, threaten to pull shit, and squeeze, until the bed's completely red. I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fuckin' Buddha head. The stress is buildin' up. I can't, I can't believe suicide's on my fuckin' mind. I want to leave, I swear to God I feel like death is fuckin' callin' me. Naw, you wouldn't understand. You see it's kinda like the crack did to Pookie in New Jack, except when I cross over, there ain't no comin' back. Should I die on the train track, like Remo in Beatstreet? People at the funeral frontin' like they miss me. My baby momma kissed me, but she glad I'm gone. She knew me and her sista had somethin' goin' on. I reach my peak. I can't speak. Call my nigga Chic, tell him that my will is weak. I'm sick of niggas lyin'. I'm sick of bitches hawkin'. Matter of fact, I'm sick of talkin'.
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Anonymous O joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 53 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,258
I almost killed myself a few months back. Had the loaded, cocked gun to my head with my finger on the trigger. Then I decided that life is just too interesting of a show to leave early, no matter how shitty it may seem sometimes.
Anonymous M replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,260
Anonymous O replied with this 15 years ago, 8 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,261
Green !pFNWNYROxA replied with this 15 years ago, 47 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #91,300
@91,065 (Homestar !RUNNERV7vk)
I believe time is cyclical. You get to live your life over again. Apart from some good points, it's going to be a living hell for me over again.
I believe time is cyclical. You get to live your life over again. Apart from some good points, it's going to be a living hell for me over again.