Topic: For additional clarification, I am psychotropically subdued now in addition to OTI 'mones
Sophie !MLHqI35Srs started this discussion 11 years ago#47,068
Quetiapine. Only non-cholinergic acting antipsychotic they could give me. Consequetly I've no trouble reasoning or thinking on it but boy, do I feel more tired.
kook !!Phkn/3Gic joined in and replied with this 11 years ago, 1 minute later[^][v]#619,094
That's interesting. Any other side effects?
Anonymous C joined in and replied with this 11 years ago, 3 minutes later, 4 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,097
> Quetiapine
Useful for Bipolar disorder.
You have Tripolar disorder. Seek out a more powerful drug.
Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) replied with this 11 years ago, 4 seconds later, 4 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,098
@619,094 (kook !!Phkn/3Gic)
Slightly more emotional on it since it does have seretonergic actions too.
I've been crying non-stop at the slightest provocations.
kook !!Phkn/3Gic replied with this 11 years ago, 4 minutes later, 9 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,100
@previous (Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
I get teary right before I menstruate. What kinds of things tend to make you cry?
Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) replied with this 11 years ago, 3 minutes later, 12 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,103
@previous (kook !!Phkn/3Gic)
Reminders of familial abuse, like a dad hitting his boy at the bus stop.
Reminders of familial verbal abuse, like shouting.
Passive-aggressive attitudes from so-called 'professionals'.
Patriotic music e.g. Mansudae.
Generally powerful music e.g. Black or Korean choiral.
'Happier'/more youthfully targeted patriotic music from foreign regimes (reminds me of a greatness that hasn't seen its conduction by suppression of chav-class elements in Britain, sadly; an application of eugenics would make me genuinely happier).
Seeing abuse of sexually abberant elements by chavs.
Chavs in general.
Liberal news outlets giving a distorted view of the propserity of society under their aegis when it has only given rise to the very elements that make me teary.
A sad painting with cold hues.
Past memories of all the above.
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kook !!Phkn/3Gic replied with this 11 years ago, 7 minutes later, 20 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,108
@previous (Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
Yikes that's quite a lot of triggers. Has your weight changed?
Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) replied with this 11 years ago, 45 seconds later, 21 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,109
@previous (kook !!Phkn/3Gic)
I've gained maybe 10 lbs.
I'd lost 30 lbs over the last year so I'm not concerned until I hit 200lbs again.
Right now at about 183 or so.
kook !!Phkn/3Gic replied with this 11 years ago, 51 seconds later, 22 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,111
@previous (Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
Have you been sleeping well/had strange dreams?
Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 11 years ago, 1 minute later, 23 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,112
Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) replied with this 11 years ago, 1 minute later, 25 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,113
@619,111 (kook !!Phkn/3Gic)
They're bizzare and mostly centered around Weiningerian-tier gender-identitarian conceptions and apparative spirits (demonic manifestatios of the so-called 'professionals', you may call it 'the Jew', 'the reptillian' or 'Satan') that act as forces in the subtly operative suppressio apparatus.
Triptych !!/xkPL9myM joined in and replied with this 11 years ago, 7 minutes later, 33 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,121
wow you do seem remarkably more reasonable
gj gj
kook !!Phkn/3Gic replied with this 11 years ago, 6 minutes later, 39 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,128
@619,113 (Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
Have you been experiencing pregnancy dreams/urges yet?
Anonymous C replied with this 11 years ago, 3 minutes later, 42 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,131
Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) replied with this 11 years ago, 1 minute later, 44 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,133
@619,128 (kook !!Phkn/3Gic) @previous (C)
Pregnancy fantasies aren't unusual for me.
I've had them before I even came out. You might read the middle of The Wisdom of Autphag for more clarification.
kook !!Phkn/3Gic replied with this 11 years ago, 1 minute later, 45 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,134
@previous (Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
When I have them, its usually about protecting something that everyone including myself calls the baby, but it's really a cat or a dog.
Sophie !MLHqI35Srs (OP) replied with this 11 years ago, 3 minutes later, 49 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,136
@previous (kook !!Phkn/3Gic)
I usually get sad that I can't even adopt for emotional reasons like fear of perpetuating my mother's abuse against me, etc.
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kook !!Phkn/3Gic replied with this 11 years ago, 8 minutes later, 58 minutes after the original post[^][v]#619,143
@previous (Sophie !MLHqI35Srs)
I feel overwhelmed with the idea of protecting a child and very afraid of carrying one inside of my body