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Catherine !TGirlYJKXM started this discussion 11 years ago#44,606
What is this paradise? Surely it isn’t anywhere found on Earth as the whole world appears to be lush green forests and jungles. Golden beaches are found almost everywhere. This world seemed to be an archipelago. Ships are seen in the distance as new passengers get off yet one never sees any get on. Ships depart almost daily here, but one had to wonder why they never take on passengers. I suppose the reason could be because nobody ever wanted to leave this glorious place. I know I wouldn’t. Which makes me question rather or not this is a vice. What could I be missing at my old job in my old life? What could I be missing at my home? My wife died sometime ago and my children are now all grown up with families of their own. What purpose did I have there? What purpose do I have here?
One could assume this place to be Heaven as there always seemed to be enough beaches for everyone and never see a single person twice. This maybe Heaven for the private types, but this thought seems scary. The world was big enough as it was and we were still able to find each other again. This world has a way of making one feel isolated and alone. The question of how one even came to be onboard of an old sea vessel continues to bog my mind. I woke up with a case of amnesia, that much is clear to me. Except I recall a traumatic event that I cannot distinguish. If this was truly Heaven then why does it feel so Hellish? I look around and notice all of the smiling faces from where I am standing. Many of them are with loved ones or even somebody to hold in their arms. I am without that. If this was Heaven then why wasn’t I reunited with my beloved wife? Am I being punished for something I did? Why am I not in Hell? Did Hell not exist yet Heaven did? Am I even in Heaven and am I even dead? Earth had nearly be explored fully during my time and almost all uncharted areas where officially chartered by 2036.
I’ve been to several areas on Earth much like where I was now. I was also known to have a photographic memory that made people feel safer when they knew that I was in their good company. Yet these surroundings are foreign to me. The feeling of being somewhere I hadn’t been always made me feel adventurous yet at the same time they made me feel frightened. I suppose a conspiracy theorist on the web would tell me that I was taking part in some secret government operation that I couldn’t have known about or in other words, I was a test rat. If this were true then why does it feel as if I had died? Maybe I should ease my mind and just enjoy what I have in front of me. Maybe this was a lesson I am to be taught. But then why can’t I fully indulge like all others? Perhaps I did do something in my life that I am being punished for and this was my punishment.
Perhaps Hell doesn’t exist in a physical matter, but a psychological one.