Topic: I feel uncomfortable thinking there's nothing wrong with me...
Smegma started this discussion 15 years ago #420
It's weird, but it's true.
I used to think I was at least a little autistic. My brother has Austism and so does my uncle. I also believed, during the first year or so of going to my univeristy, that I had Avoidant Personality Disorder. Then a year later I thought I had Schizoid personality disorder. Recently I began juggling aroung the idea that I was a sociopath.
Eventually, I came to realize that there's nothing wrong with me. In realizing that I also realized that I'm just this weird virgin who does nothing but piss his time away on WoW, and by all fault of my own, I probably won't do anything with my life. The closest thing I'll have to kids is my nephews or nieces. The closest thing I'll come to a wife is perhaps a random 2-month relationship (if even that).
This isn't a sulking depression thread, btw. I'm not really sad about it. I don't know what I am.
I used to think I was at least a little autistic. My brother has Austism and so does my uncle. I also believed, during the first year or so of going to my univeristy, that I had Avoidant Personality Disorder. Then a year later I thought I had Schizoid personality disorder. Recently I began juggling aroung the idea that I was a sociopath.
Eventually, I came to realize that there's nothing wrong with me. In realizing that I also realized that I'm just this weird virgin who does nothing but piss his time away on WoW, and by all fault of my own, I probably won't do anything with my life. The closest thing I'll have to kids is my nephews or nieces. The closest thing I'll come to a wife is perhaps a random 2-month relationship (if even that).
This isn't a sulking depression thread, btw. I'm not really sad about it. I don't know what I am.
Johnny4shoes !ZQALZnFSWU joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 24 seconds later[^] [v] #8,095
You might be a pedophile.
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,100
Falco !MzQCNUfXbc joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 second later, 2 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,101
Your name could change, for starters
If you have any of that you're not gonna have a good life
If you have any of that you're not gonna have a good life
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 3 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,103
Falco !MzQCNUfXbc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 5 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,107
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 7 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,112
@previous (Falco !MzQCNUfXbc)
Also, as silly as it sounds, I feel like I'm part of a community here. I'm afraid changing my name would upset that.
Also, as silly as it sounds, I feel like I'm part of a community here. I'm afraid changing my name would upset that.
hamfist !a4fa8BKGtQ joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 13 seconds later, 8 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,113
> slit wrists
> blame it on dog
> get away with it
> blame it on dog
> get away with it
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 11 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,119
@previous (hamfist !a4fa8BKGtQ)
No thank you. I understand why people cut themselves, and I can sympathize with them, but it never seemed like an appropriate outlet for anything to me. Then again, I've never tried so who knows... Even so, I'd rather not start.
No thank you. I understand why people cut themselves, and I can sympathize with them, but it never seemed like an appropriate outlet for anything to me. Then again, I've never tried so who knows... Even so, I'd rather not start.
Smegma (OP) double-posted this 15 years ago, 11 minutes later, 23 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,133
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And why shouldn't it?
And why shouldn't it?
Bobby2Sox !dinhUJfbqA joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 29 seconds later, 23 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,135
You could try being my friend. Thats sure to give you a complex.Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 25 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,144
@previous (Bobby2Sox !dinhUJfbqA)
Lol the fact that I feel uncomfortable knowing there's nothing wrong with me is pathetic enough. I probably shouldn't be seeking complexes.
Lol the fact that I feel uncomfortable knowing there's nothing wrong with me is pathetic enough. I probably shouldn't be seeking complexes.
hamfist !a4fa8BKGtQ replied with this 15 years ago, 40 seconds later, 26 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,146
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 28 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,151
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Mind giving me a source?
Mind giving me a source?
Smegma (OP) double-posted this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 32 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,165
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Interesting. I wonder what it will be classified as, or if DSM will keep it at all.
Interesting. I wonder what it will be classified as, or if DSM will keep it at all.
Smegma (OP) triple-posted this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 33 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,170
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I thought hypochondriasis referred to those anxious with physical problems.
I thought hypochondriasis referred to those anxious with physical problems.
Smegma (OP) quadruple-posted this 15 years ago, 34 seconds later, 34 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,173
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I wonder if the WHO is keeping it listed as a disorder.
I wonder if the WHO is keeping it listed as a disorder.
Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 30 seconds later, 34 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,174
Turns out, losing your virginity is pretty easy. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rainbow_Gathering Go to one of these.
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 36 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,181
@previous (Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc)
It's not that I can't lose my virginity. I'm not physically apalling and I'm at least somewhat intelligent.
The thought of having sex makes me anxious as fuck.
It's not that I can't lose my virginity. I'm not physically apalling and I'm at least somewhat intelligent.
The thought of having sex makes me anxious as fuck.
Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc replied with this 15 years ago, 34 seconds later, 37 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,182
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 52 seconds later, 38 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,185
I think the reason I wish there was something wrong with me is because I seek some kind of identity.
Being able to say I have avoidant personality disorder or autism would just make me feel like I belong somewhere, even if that somewhere isn't that great.
Being able to say I have avoidant personality disorder or autism would just make me feel like I belong somewhere, even if that somewhere isn't that great.
Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc replied with this 15 years ago, 39 seconds later, 39 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,186
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 35 seconds later, 39 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,188
@8,182 (Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc)
It's probably some kind of pre-performance anxiety. I talked about it with another MCer before.
I figure I'd just embarass myself.
It's probably some kind of pre-performance anxiety. I talked about it with another MCer before.
I figure I'd just embarass myself.
Smegma (OP) double-posted this 15 years ago, 58 seconds later, 40 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,190
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In a nutshell, yes, though that makes me sound kind of shallow.
Perhaps I am.
In a nutshell, yes, though that makes me sound kind of shallow.
Perhaps I am.
Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc replied with this 15 years ago, 13 seconds later, 40 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,191
@8,188 (Smegma)
I had the same feelings last night. This girl kept dropping subtle signals. I was so nervous, I would pretend not to notice them. She then pretty much blatantly told me I could fuck her and that there was nothing to worry about.
I had the same feelings last night. This girl kept dropping subtle signals. I was so nervous, I would pretend not to notice them. She then pretty much blatantly told me I could fuck her and that there was nothing to worry about.
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 42 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,200
@previous (Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc)
I feel that the only way I'm going to lose my virginity is if I'm somewhat drunk, and she's extremely drunk.
I feel that the only way I'm going to lose my virginity is if I'm somewhat drunk, and she's extremely drunk.
Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 43 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,211
Smegma (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 47 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,221
@previous (Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc)
Lol I'll consider it.
They like come to my area once or twice a year.
Lol I'll consider it.
They like come to my area once or twice a year.
Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 48 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #8,224
@previous (Smegma)
It is definitely a life changing experience. If I didnt have class, I'd still be there. They are in my area for another 2 weeks, and I'm going back next weekend (I'm gonna get to try LSD).
It is definitely a life changing experience. If I didnt have class, I'd still be there. They are in my area for another 2 weeks, and I'm going back next weekend (I'm gonna get to try LSD).
Smegma !J5VkSmegmA joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 hour later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #8,462
@previous (Jack the Viking !gOStA1p7Pc)
I don't like the way those types of drugs mess with me. I tend to avoid them.
I'll only do Salvia once in a very long while.
I don't like the way those types of drugs mess with me. I tend to avoid them.
I'll only do Salvia once in a very long while.
Anonymous I joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 12 hours later, 15 hours after the original post[^] [v] #9,587
Buck up, faggot.
Once you are out and working, earning money and meeting people, your life will fall into place.
Everyone always thinks they are weird/different/odd mostly because they want to be unique, and there is nothing wrong with that. However, you are more than likely very average, and will end up having a very average life, 2.4 kids, mortgage etc and end up wanting to kill yourself anyway.
Fuck everything and kill yourself now, or get on with it. Simple choice.
Once you are out and working, earning money and meeting people, your life will fall into place.
Everyone always thinks they are weird/different/odd mostly because they want to be unique, and there is nothing wrong with that. However, you are more than likely very average, and will end up having a very average life, 2.4 kids, mortgage etc and end up wanting to kill yourself anyway.
Fuck everything and kill yourself now, or get on with it. Simple choice.
Deckard Cain !xhERPesk0k joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 20 minutes later, 15 hours after the original post[^] [v] #9,625
@OP
> I'm just this weird virgin who does nothing but piss his time away on WoW
Hmm, copious amounts of time on WoW should definitely be pruned. I play only 12 hours a week and can raid in heroic difficulty. Stop logging in to do stupid shit, it's ruining your life. Use that time to exercise, clean your place up, go out with friends, ect. The time sink that game can put on your life is a serious source of depression for a lot of people.
If you are so fucked up that you really have NOTHING else to do, buy Bad Company 2 and HoN and I will show you a level of rage you never thought existed.
> I'm just this weird virgin who does nothing but piss his time away on WoW
Hmm, copious amounts of time on WoW should definitely be pruned. I play only 12 hours a week and can raid in heroic difficulty. Stop logging in to do stupid shit, it's ruining your life. Use that time to exercise, clean your place up, go out with friends, ect. The time sink that game can put on your life is a serious source of depression for a lot of people.
If you are so fucked up that you really have NOTHING else to do, buy Bad Company 2 and HoN and I will show you a level of rage you never thought existed.