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Killer Lettuce !!iNo3FkiZx joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 2 hours later[^][v]#479,031
There is nothing to be gained by giving in to the dark side of the force. Remember you Jedi training.
Suicide Guy joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 1 hour later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,043
@op
I feel your pain bro/sis(sorry). I am in the same boat. And I'm not going to tell you anything that we both haven't heard. Honestly, I think everything people tell us is a crock of shit. They say things will get better... When??
They say look to the fake god for his guidance... If there really was a fake god, would he let you suffer the way we do?
I wish some of these people understood what we actually go through. They have no fucking idea what is going through our minds. No fucking idea the pain, the hurt, or the demons we fight every damn day. What we fight is completely different from what they fight.
And I can tell you right now, sometimes people are in a depression, and they can't talk about it. For fear of retaliation, breaking a family apart, something you've seen that's locked in your mind. Myself, I'm in depression because of the chance of breaking a family apart. I can't do it... knowing if I say something, and this family gets torn apart, will throw me into a deeper depression, not help me.
Anyway, I wish you well bro/sis... Like I said, I know the pain, I'm in it now.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 12 years ago, 4 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,044
@previous (Suicide Guy)
Alcohol numbs the pain for a while. But I'm worried that I'll do something reckless when drunk. I can barely bring myself to do anything today. I haven't eaten and I don't want to eat, I have no appetite. The hunger pales in comparison to how sad I feel.
Catherine replied with this 12 years ago, 10 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,046
you guys are pussies
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Suicide Guy double-posted this 12 years ago, 4 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,047
My new favorite saying is, "Death is not the most painful thing we go through, the most painful thing we go through is what dies inside us while we live."
I drink to forget, I struggle each day to get out of bed knowing that the demons are waiting to torment me for the day. I am emotionally worn out, I am tired, I fight just to take a bite if food, it's just become unbearable...
Suicide Guy triple-posted this 12 years ago, 53 seconds later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,048
Fuck you..... get into my shoes for a day you fucking bitch.....
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 12 years ago, 5 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,050
@479,046 (Catherine)
Yeah, you know nothing about us. @479,047 (Suicide Guy)
That's how I feel. I do get the odd good day, but at the end I just feel like I'm in a void. 'It'll get better they say', 6 years later and it hasn't got better at all.
Suicide Guy replied with this 12 years ago, 9 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,051
Another irritating thing I hear, "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem."..... Ummmm, yea, maybe to them. Our minds are working triple time, to sort through our problems, and when what we try to do fails, it puts us in a deeper hole.
I been suffering with my depression for just over a year, I thought it would get better, nope. I am now a nervous wreck, I can't stand to be around a lot of people at one time, I go through the anxiety and panic attacks.
It bothers me to be around my wife sometimes when I start to cry for no reason, and she feels so helpless, because she knows there's nothing she can do. I don't tell her about my suicidal thoughts, it's bad enough for her.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 12 years ago, 4 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,052
@previous (Suicide Guy)
I don't talk to anybody. I have no friends and am by myself all the time.
Suicide Guy replied with this 12 years ago, 8 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,053
Yea, lately that's how I have been, I'd rather be alone. 4 or 5 times a day, I will wander into the woods behind the house. Two days ago, I almost kept walking, with no desire to turn around.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 12 years ago, 53 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,061
@previous (Suicide Guy)
I just go into town a couple of times a day.
Anonymous C replied with this 12 years ago, 18 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,063
I can't, I just need to be away from people. I go into walmart, grocery store, or anywhere there's a bunch of people, I start flipping out. I used to never be that way... but for the last 6 or so months it's gotten bad.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 12 years ago, 16 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,064
I can't even do that... the wife has to do it for me. Worst part is, this past Easter, went to family for dinner. It's family, I should feel fine right?? Wrong.... To many people and I was still uncomfortable, even with family.
squeegee joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 17 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,068
@479,043 (Suicide Guy)
like no one has been in depression but you
squeegee double-posted this 12 years ago, 2 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,070
@479,051 (Suicide Guy)
you do get over it and realise years later that it was like having cancer. once it's gone you're fine and understand it was the disease making you feel that way, not your personal demons. just don't kill yourself being lame and you'll eventually be fine.
Suicide Guy replied with this 12 years ago, 3 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,071
I never said I was the only one. I know I'm not the only one. There are millions of us in the world. People handle depression in different ways. Some people go their whole life in a depression...
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Anonymous E joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 27 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,072
We're talking about depression, not drug relapse. Or drugs period, the anti-depressant they put me on didn't do shit for me. It made my depression worse and my suicidal thoughts skyrocket....
Anonymous E replied with this 12 years ago, 3 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,078
@previous (Suicide Guy)
It isn't only used to treat addiction, but anxiety, social anxiety, PTSD, and depression as well. Keep it on your radar and read the experiences.
Lore joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 5 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,083
you guys sound more bitter than depressed almost geez
Suicide Guy replied with this 12 years ago, 12 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,084
You sound like your an expert there lore. Please share some of your expert comments and tell us you know how we feel. Tell us about our thoughts, our anger, our sadness, our life.
Walk in my fucking shoes, or the OP's shoes for a week. Let me know if you can come up with a fucking solution to the problems we go through each day...
Oh, I'm sorry, did that sound bitter to you? Well, Mr. expert.... did you know being bitter is another phase we go through? Do you not think we would rather not be in a depression?
Anonymous C double-posted this 12 years ago, 5 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,085
your a cocksucker man, my mom went through depression and still found the strength and will to raise me and my two sisters. Today, she still suffers depression. And there are times she lashes out at people for no reason. The smallest thing can send her into a crying spell where she feels worthless. Try consoling your own mom when she's like that. You are an arrogant fuck...
Lore replied with this 12 years ago, 30 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,090
@479,084 (Suicide Guy)
Dude you made a thread about starving yourself to death i don't believe shit you say i don't care if you've 'been depressed for a year'
@previous (C)
I Haven't read any of your replies but i don't care about your family
I'm just saying because like
I don't usually feel like bragging about my depression or my family's history of mental illness, so i don't.
here's the thing you guys are dumb
So i don't care
/post
Lore double-posted this 12 years ago, 40 seconds later, 7 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,091
just saying
Because you know
Your whole presumptuous 'you don't know how i feel' deal
you'll get over that too
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 12 years ago, 13 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,094
@479,083 (Lore)
You try living with an attraction that makes you the most despised person in society. You try waking up every day, hating yourself because of it. The only way I can get away from this hell is self-destruction and eventually suicide.
Anonymous A (OP) double-posted this 12 years ago, 1 minute later, 8 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,095
@479,093 (Lore)
Try getting over a sick attraction that's lasted your whole life. I doubt you've had anything like this.
Anonymous C replied with this 12 years ago, 5 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,096
Me and the OP was having our own conversation... you jump in there with your"y'all sound more bitter than depressed." So take the heat.
Your the one who likes jumping on everyones thread and posting shit on them. Then when someone jumps your shit, you get butt hurt.
No one gives a fuck about your opinions, no one cares that you stick your fingers in your ass and lick the shit off. No one fucking cares about you.
Your that fucking pussy who sits behind his computer acting like he is a badass. Your that fucking pussy who still lives with mommy and sleeps in the basement. You don't suffer from depression, you suffer from being a little cocksucking maggot.
Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 3 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,098
still fantasizing about david and his dog, autgag?
Anonymous C replied with this 12 years ago, 3 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^][v]#479,099
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 4 days later, 5 days after the original post[^][v]#479,839
Find something you find more interesting and engaging than being a whiney fucking sadact?? Maybe thatll work?
I went from spending every concious second hating everything, the sound of my own breathing, seeing people smile, analogue clocks, food. Ate some shrooms and became too engaged with exploring altered states and the general use of entheogens, forgot all about the 3 years i wasted being depressed. Now i lust over tinkering with my psyche.
Thats just me and what i did though. Do something though. Anything is better than being a sadact.
Anonymous H double-posted this 12 years ago, 9 minutes later, 5 days after the original post[^][v]#479,841
And you sound like you are having trouble about an unusual attraction, maybe you should joinup at allthefallen.org it may help you vent.
Syntax joined in and replied with this 12 years ago, 1 hour later, 5 days after the original post[^][v]#479,845
> no they should kill themselves, two less wangsty teens shitting up the gene pool are always good
this, if you're strong enough to give yourself a mental illness you are strong enough to cure it, if you dont then feel free to take the next flight out of this dimension