postmortem started this discussion 13 years ago#25,362
I'm a selfish asshole, and I'm mean and hurtful to those closest to me. I'm stupid, slow to understand things, and socially off. I'm lazy, disorganized, and thoughtless. I'm dependent on others for emotional support, and can barely function without my love.
The love that I fuck up, and neglect, that I'm malevolent to, and just not very nice to. The thing I value the most I regularly treat like shit.
In my heart I know I don't deserve Cupcake, or anyone else. I don't deserve to be happy or to have success. I'm a bad person, and everyone on here that has expressed hatred for me before is completely justified in my opinion. In fact I'm probably a lot worse than you think I am
I'm truly sorry I was born, minichan. I want you to know that I like all of you, even those of you who dislike me. And I love Cupcake so very much. I would die for that girl. She's amazing, wonderful, creative, talented, and she makes me so happy. A happiness I don't think I've ever deserved.
I'm sorry I'm posting this, I'm also a pathetic and needy attention whore. But you all know that already.
I got broken up with again, and I deserve it. Lexi put a picture of the two of us on instagram, and I made a stupid sexual comment on the picture, which was disrespectful and thoughtless of me. She said it was "the last straw", and that there there was nothing I could do. I would do anything to be with her, honestly, even though I know I shouldn't even be allowed near someone as wonderful as her. I just hope she's happy now.
postmortem (OP) double-posted this 13 years ago, 42 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,049
I don't know why I vent feelings on here so much, it's kind of stupid of me I guess. Cupcake will probably read this, I don't know if I want her to or not, I don't want her to know how pathetic I am.
★henn★ joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 4 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,050
HaikerensGuide !0VegJ9Jl.Q joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,052
You sound incredibly beta.
postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 22 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,054
@387,050 (★henn★)
I'd rather not say. I know, I'd want to know too, but she was upset with me for posting the comment in public, I probably shouldn't post it in public somewhere else. The picture was a picture of the two of us and the comment was basically just implying I'd like to have sex with her, and also myself. The joke was that I found myself particularly sexually attractive. I tried to make a comment that was an innuendo, but not too crass or overtly sexual, but I failed miserably at it. And now I'm paying the price.
postmortem (OP) double-posted this 13 years ago, 53 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,055
Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 30 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,072
you are such an asshole
the extent to which you like were so confident in yourself and your relationship while you were in it was like astounding
i hope this is at least remotely serving you as a reality check
your life just sounds plain dumb
Anonymous G double-posted this 13 years ago, 1 minute later, 5 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,073
i hate that you post here with the intent of cupcake reading it
it's so underhanded and lame to post on a board like this for everyone to vent but also with a painfully obvious ulterior motive like what is she going to take you back because you brag to all these people about how much you love her? how smart she is? it's just obnoxious
you are such a child
stop oh my god
★henn★ replied with this 13 years ago, 31 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,079
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 28 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,085
lol
green joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 46 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,091
Set yourself on fire.
Handel !tYHPZ2dvu6 joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 4 hours later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,100
Wow what a dramatic bitch.
Anonymous B replied with this 13 years ago, 1 hour later, 12 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,103
@387,054 (postmortem)
she sounds like a prude. try being gay you'll probably like it better.
postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 3 hours later, 16 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,125
@387,073 (G)
There's no ulterior motif. I just use this place to vent. You're right to an extent though, I obviously am keeping in mind that she might read this, but I would be conveying the same message to you people whether or not she knew about this site.
(Edited 8 minutes later.)
postmortem (OP) double-posted this 13 years ago, 2 minutes later, 16 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,126
@387,103 (B)
You aren't tricking me into that. She's not a prude she's a respectable young lady.
TheSheep !kJ.A4PF7.k joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 6 minutes later, 16 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,127
I don't think you're bad, I just think you're an idiot and I bet my 0.35 bitcoins that this is another game played by that psychotic fucktard and you'll get back again with her.
Screw that shit and move on.
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 13 minutes later, 16 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,129
@previous (TheSheep !kJ.A4PF7.k)
I don't think this is a game, but I also know there's a decent chance of us getting back together. I do hate having to plead with her and grovel every few months when a serious enough transgression is committed. I don't think she's a psychotic fucktard, I just think she leaves me then changes her mind about it. It's been suggested by some that she does this to be with other men without feeling guilty, and she just gets back with me when she's done or it doesn't work out, but I am inclined to believe that this is not the case. I just think she's upset, but I wish her being upset didn't result in her leaving me for who knows how long. A day? A week? A month? I don't know.
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 replied with this 13 years ago, 44 seconds later, 16 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,130
What did you actually say?
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 2 minutes later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,131
@previous (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
Honestly, I don't have the exact comment, and I didn't archive it anywhere. The language wasn't explicit, but it was an obvious innuendo. Like "I'd like to hop in bed with that", not that, but on the same level as that.
(Edited 5 minutes later.)
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 replied with this 13 years ago, 5 minutes later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,132
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 1 minute later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,134
@387,132 (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
If she comes on here, she will already be pissed I made a thread about this in the first place. I don't want to risk her gettting even more mad at me.
Postmortem (OP) double-posted this 13 years ago, 30 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,135
@387,133 (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
Did you read it? The thing with the "..."s was what I remembered typing. The "..."s were literally what I typed, I wasn't censoring myself. I edited it because I didn't want it on here permanently.
(Edited 2 minutes later.)
TheSheep !kJ.A4PF7.k replied with this 13 years ago, 1 minute later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,136
> It's been suggested by some that she does this to be with other men without feeling guilty, and she just gets back with me when she's done or it doesn't work out, but I am inclined to believe that this is not the case
Get some self respect and stop treating yourself like shit.
Once you do that, others will respect you too and treat you with decency.
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 replied with this 13 years ago, 38 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,137
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 double-posted this 13 years ago, 19 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,138
@387,134 (Postmortem)
She'll be mad anyway, because you made this thread at all.
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 triple-posted this 13 years ago, 19 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,139
It didnt even seem that crude.
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 6 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,140
@387,137 (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
Good I aso edited the last statement I made. Be sure you notice.
Postmortem (OP) double-posted this 13 years ago, 53 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,141
@387,138 (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
Yes, yes she will. But I'd rather her be 7 mads than 20. Ya know?
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 replied with this 13 years ago, 1 minute later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,142
@previous (Postmortem)
But why even make her 7 mad?
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 6 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,143
@387,136 (TheSheep !kJ.A4PF7.k)
I don't know, I'm usually pretty happy with myself until Cupcake leaves me.
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 replied with this 13 years ago, 30 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,144
Why was this the last straw? What happened before this incident?
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 1 minute later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,145
@387,142 (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
Well, too late now, obviously. But also I just like talking to you guys when I'm upset. She already broke up with me, it isn't like she's going to double break up with me or something.
buspup !!x+kkCmnF4 replied with this 13 years ago, 2 minutes later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,146
@previous (Postmortem)
But she couldnt double break up with you for posting your own remarks either.
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 19 seconds later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,147
@387,144 (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
We got into a couple arguments, short lasting ones, I got upset with her over pictures a while back, and I sarcastically told her dad that I wasn't his kid.
Postmortem (OP) double-posted this 13 years ago, 1 minute later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,148
@387,146 (buspup !!x+kkCmnF4)
Yes, but I also would just rather not display the remarks here, you know, in case she ever does take me back.
Postmortem (OP) triple-posted this 13 years ago, 21 minutes later, 17 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,151
I regret making this. I hope someone comes in and deletes this thread.
green replied with this 13 years ago, 1 hour later, 18 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,155
Have you set yourself on fire yet?
★henn★ replied with this 13 years ago, 28 minutes later, 19 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,161
@387,147 (Postmortem)
Why did you tell her dad you weren't his kid?
green replied with this 13 years ago, 2 minutes later, 19 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,162
@previous (★henn★)
Wait. They're brother and sister? The plot thickens!
Anonymous G replied with this 13 years ago, 27 minutes later, 19 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,164
instagram break-up draad
Anonymous L joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 3 hours later, 23 hours after the original post[^][v]#387,220
kill youself, OP.
Anonymous M joined in and replied with this 13 years ago, 28 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#387,229
She was soooo innn loooove with you, and then disagreeing with your sense or humor, she broke up with you. That's really fickle. If you cheated on her, hit her, etc. But just being snarky is a bit much.
I told you bringing lovers on the chans has would cause a breakup. I actually think that cursed the relationship. Be glad you two didn't have sex on camera like this one couple here.
(Edited 45 seconds later.)
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 38 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#387,235
@previous (M)
I'm doubting it's permanent. She's ignoring me now, but that isn't going to last long. She's upset with me, and that's reasonable, but I seriously doubt it's over forever. I just had a little panic attack of sorts when she said "We're over" like I always do.
Anonymous M replied with this 13 years ago, 24 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#387,240
Postmortem (OP) replied with this 13 years ago, 43 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#387,246
@previous (M)
Minichan isn't the Maury show. She's upset with me and is stating she's over me. However based on past experience I believe that we'll be back together in the future. I want very much for us to be back together because I love her, and she makes me happy.
Anonymous G replied with this 13 years ago, 4 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#387,297