Topic: Sometimes I see symbolism everywhere...
brie !hW6clEMVuQ started this discussion 14 years ago #16,594
I'm a fan of symbolism, but sometimes it can drive a nigga crazy... delusions of grandeur and of collusions and conspiracies... that kind of crazy.
Sometimes it's easier to read into something I've decided is symbolic than to attempt making proper sense of what is really going on around me. It's can get to being a bit of a problem in my life and it's hard to make it go away... just a bit ago, while in the hospital for a psychotic break, I was flipping through a book they gave me to read and every page seemed to be relevant to my current situation... later, in the psych ward a hilarious bible-thumping lady mentioned something and I picked up her bible and flipped to revelations 20:12.. in hindsight I am a bit shocked that I was able to relate the passage to myself.
I feel like i need to stop making myself go insane or something terrible will happen, like maybe i will find myself sitting in church pews someday if this keeps up;
but it's so easy to read into the symbolism i see all around me...
Sometimes it's easier to read into something I've decided is symbolic than to attempt making proper sense of what is really going on around me. It's can get to being a bit of a problem in my life and it's hard to make it go away... just a bit ago, while in the hospital for a psychotic break, I was flipping through a book they gave me to read and every page seemed to be relevant to my current situation... later, in the psych ward a hilarious bible-thumping lady mentioned something and I picked up her bible and flipped to revelations 20:12.. in hindsight I am a bit shocked that I was able to relate the passage to myself.
I feel like i need to stop making myself go insane or something terrible will happen, like maybe i will find myself sitting in church pews someday if this keeps up;
but it's so easy to read into the symbolism i see all around me...
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Anonymous B joined in and replied with this 14 years ago, 1 hour later[^] [v] #284,393
Well sorry to break it to you, but secrets do exist. Therefore coded messages and conspiracies are inevitable on some level.
I used to be like you. Wondering if I was crazy or sane. Now I've accepted the need to fuck with my enemies. I joined a conspiracy to bankrupt all governments and liberate all information. Once we're successful, privacy will be an impossibility for all governments, corporations and individuals. The world will be a better place once everyone is held accountable.
I used to be like you. Wondering if I was crazy or sane. Now I've accepted the need to fuck with my enemies. I joined a conspiracy to bankrupt all governments and liberate all information. Once we're successful, privacy will be an impossibility for all governments, corporations and individuals. The world will be a better place once everyone is held accountable.
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brie !hW6clEMVuQ (OP) replied with this 14 years ago, 35 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #284,397
@previous (B)
well shit...
I used to be an idealist and an optimist, like you, but as a bi-polar, basement dwelling, ex-homeless sufferer of PTSD and schizophrenia, it's pretty easy to feel defeated and alone...
I've always wanted to change the world for the better, but these days it feels impossible... fuck the police state and fuck the corporate bankers... the only way I can see anymore is to hide in a hole until I die or to burn the establishment with fire... I am not learned enough to deal with politics and I've not spent enough time hacking to be an asset to the cause that way, either... luckily I do have this basement to live in, so one of those things may change, at least..
well shit...
I used to be an idealist and an optimist, like you, but as a bi-polar, basement dwelling, ex-homeless sufferer of PTSD and schizophrenia, it's pretty easy to feel defeated and alone...
I've always wanted to change the world for the better, but these days it feels impossible... fuck the police state and fuck the corporate bankers... the only way I can see anymore is to hide in a hole until I die or to burn the establishment with fire... I am not learned enough to deal with politics and I've not spent enough time hacking to be an asset to the cause that way, either... luckily I do have this basement to live in, so one of those things may change, at least..
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brie !hW6clEMVuQ (OP) double-posted this 14 years ago, 1 hour later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,403
I'm not that great at being a hustler, but maybe one of my hustles will pay off (welfare "fraud" lol) soon...
Anonymous C joined in and replied with this 14 years ago, 12 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,405
Rainbow !DASHqGnDdc joined in and replied with this 14 years ago, 18 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,407
brie !hW6clEMVuQ joined in and replied with this 14 years ago, 1 minute later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,408
Rainbow !DASHqGnDdc replied with this 14 years ago, 10 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,411
@previous (brie !hW6clEMVuQ)
when people say 'hustle' i think confidence scams
welfare fraud isnt even hard
SWIM does it, for gods sake
when people say 'hustle' i think confidence scams
welfare fraud isnt even hard
SWIM does it, for gods sake
brie !hW6clEMVuQ replied with this 14 years ago, 11 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,414
@previous (Rainbow !DASHqGnDdc)
my hustles tend to be quite a bit more legitimate than the typical hustles out on the streets
it probably has something to do with my fear of being imprisoned
i've still been kicked off of my fair share of properties when i'm drugged up and not giving as much of a fuck
i am lucky the Portland Police are pretty chill, lol~
my hustles tend to be quite a bit more legitimate than the typical hustles out on the streets
it probably has something to do with my fear of being imprisoned
i've still been kicked off of my fair share of properties when i'm drugged up and not giving as much of a fuck
i am lucky the Portland Police are pretty chill, lol~
brie !hW6clEMVuQ double-posted this 14 years ago, 7 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,416
@284,411 (Rainbow !DASHqGnDdc)
basically, i am a shitty hustler, but i mainly only take it to the streets when i'm high on drugs.
welfare fraud is my next attempt to escape from this hole i am living in... my father is an un-medicated paranoid schizoid (and who knows what else)... it's probably not helping me too much to be around him when he's talking about conspiracies and shit all the time or emotionally abusing me.. i should probably already have gotten disability but therapists are crap at diagnosing my particular type of insanity.
basically, i am a shitty hustler, but i mainly only take it to the streets when i'm high on drugs.
welfare fraud is my next attempt to escape from this hole i am living in... my father is an un-medicated paranoid schizoid (and who knows what else)... it's probably not helping me too much to be around him when he's talking about conspiracies and shit all the time or emotionally abusing me.. i should probably already have gotten disability but therapists are crap at diagnosing my particular type of insanity.
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henn joined in and replied with this 14 years ago, 1 hour later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,431
ON DEM SKREETZ BRA
brie !hW6clEMVuQ replied with this 14 years ago, 1 minute later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,432
Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 14 years ago, 41 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #284,447
nigga plz~