Topic: 18, lonely as mess, need advice?..

Fezt started this discussion 15 years ago #13,801

I'm 18, i have two jobs lined up possibly that are 30 miles from where i live. I have no way to get there. I feel like i have no emotions, i am constantly scrutinized, beat down emotionally/mentally, nothing i do is right. I'm under so much stress im nauseous. I have no friends except girls that i dont even like that try to be friends but i dont like them enough to let them in to help. I have no life, i'm fat (6'1" 275, not a pure blob of it.) I have nothing to do but facebook and emails all day. Past has come to bite me. My whole family hates me, landlord wants to kick dad and i out cuz of me. I lie. I hate myself. Nothing is right. I feel near nothing. I dont believe in love. I have no gf, have in the past. Want to get closer to god but its not possible i feel like. I dont even know what to say. As we speak, i'm shaking and nervous because of life. Trying to sand down and fix something i messed up for a few days that ive been hiding hoping it works. Nowhere to go once i'm thrown out. Everyones urging me to stop fucking up and fix myself but i cant figure out how to and when i try nobody notices a difference. When i tell the truth, im unbelieved. I hate my life. What the fuck do i do... Feeling low, scared. Familys all upset at me, nobody has a place for me if i get kicked out.. Wish i could take the job but i dont drive yet. Have my learners but no car. Accepted into a local community college but i cant pay for it. We're near broke. I dont know what to do anymore. Pic completely unrelated... Thoughts, advice, help? I'm not sure what im looking for other then to be out of this trap, to be a better person.

InvincibleAlphaMale joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later[^] [v] #246,438

Try killing yourself.

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 28 seconds later, 2 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,439

@previous (InvincibleAlphaMale)
No, i'm good..

Anonymous C joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 6 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,440

> I feel like i have no emotions

> I am...beat down emotionally
> I'm under so much stress
> I hate myself
> i'm shaking and nervous
> I hate my life
> Feeling low, scared

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 7 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,441

@previous (C)
oh i see what u did thar. Makes sense. No positive or happy emotions, no love. Nothing good that lasts. Near all i feel is miserable, depressed, sick, nervous, sad.
Dont know what to do, no idea what to say anymore. not sure what i want from you guys. sorry..

(Edited 9 minutes later.)

Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 13 minutes later, 20 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,451

I know how you feel. I've been there. Don't give up on community college- your best bet is school. Call them and ask to make an appointment with a counselor. Talk to him about your financial options. There are tons and tons of grants for low-income students. You have to be proactive about it, though.

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 23 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,454

@previous (D)
Thanks. Yeah, my grades in highschool were bad so idk how much but i want to try and make it work lol. But idk. the ever present lonliness and just knowing that the second my door opens up im going to get a shitstorm and i will possibly have nowhere to go because ive pissed off my whole family is just literally bringing me on the verge of an anxiety attack. I hate knowing someones around or that someones gotten home or what have you, it doesnt end up in any sort of feel good or happy thing. Its alway shitty.

Anonymous D replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 25 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,456

@previous (Fezt)
What did you do to make your family hate you?

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 26 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,457

@previous (D)
i've been an annoying, pessimistic cunt thats assimilated most people in my life. Dont have a good track record. Lying, stealing, drugs. All in the past. Recently told my cousin whose 4 that hes adopted because he was being a shithead. But i told him he wasnt right afterwards. Thats the latest fiasco. Most of my family is pissed at that.

Anonymous D replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 28 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,462

@previous (Fezt)
You do sound like a bit of a cunt. You need to work on that. Apologize to your family and try to be a better kid.

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 30 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,466

@previous (D)
yeah, i've been a full out douchebag. overbearing, authority struggles, basically my father describes me as a user (not drug related)/snake. I seldom lie. i do stupid shit but i dont do drugs and alcohol. Everything i say is misenterpreted which causes issues. And as for apologizing, that likely wont work this time, atleast not well. same bullshit different day is what i fear they're going to say

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 33 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,473

He's not a kid. He's 18. Get your miserable ass out of the house and go fend for yourself. Either that or be a dependant cunt and learn to live with your familys disapointment, frustration and anger.

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 35 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #246,477

@previous (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)
at the moment i have no drivers liscence, just a learners permit. I cant afford a car. my only two options for work are 30 miles away, where most family of mine live. At the moment i'm kinda stuck. I contemplated packing up my stuff, finding a homeless shelter to stay at until i find a local job like mcdonalds til i can get my shit together. Also, military. i need to lose about 70 lbs to pass everything and enlist. When i do so, i'm getting the fuck out. I know it isnt saying much but i got my nursing liscence in highschool, so i have options i guess

(Edited 6 minutes later.)

Fezt (OP) double-posted this 15 years ago, 49 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,552

Going to start with talking to my neighbor, the aunt that doesn't totally hate me, and apologize for a shitstorm i caused with her. Just throwin that out there

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 23 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,579

@previous (Fezt)

Good!

You should try and find a job closer to home. Once you do that, renting a smaller flat or rooming with people is a good way to give your family space and cool down. If you get one close to work then you can bicycle for free and it will be good for your health. Plus you can make friends at work.

tl;dr get a job

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,582

@previous (C)
i read, and i like the advice. thank you

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 46 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,583

@previous (Fezt)

the first step is writing a strong resume

how is your current one?

Fezt (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,588

@previous (C)
i think its good actually.

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 51 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,589

@previous (Fezt)

so go and send it out to local places of business then

does america have a version of the job centre?

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 second later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,590

@246,583 (C)
> 18
> resume

Don't be daft. Just fill out applications, yo. You're not trying to be president.

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #246,591

@previous (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)

A CV is required here except in some really big chain stores. Smaller shops won't have application forms.

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,595

@previous (C)
> resume for minimum wage jobs

You must be british or something

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,598

@previous (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)

Ding ding ding ding ding! Your small business owners must be really shit and go bankrupt all the time if they don't want a resume from every application.

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,599

@previous (C)
Lol, shows what you know. This is America, we don't do small businesses. We only do big box retailers and franchises.

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,600

@previous (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)

I don't know a lot about America, I've never been there. What would you do if you wanted to set up your own business?

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,602

@previous (C)
Buy a franchise. Either a subway, or a starbucks. Those are your choices.

(Edited 1 minute later.)

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,603

@previous (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)

But why would they spend that much more to franchise their restaurant? What if they want to occupy a niche?

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,604

@previous (C)
Cost of printing applications is too high to be in a niche business.

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 53 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,605

@previous (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)

I don't quite understand what you mean. Can you clarify?

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,606

@previous (C)
Yes, but we're quite off topic now, we should focus on getting OP laid.

Anonymous C replied with this 15 years ago, 26 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,607

@previous (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)

I'll make a thread.

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,608

@previous (C)
Good idea, let me finish up with Op.

@OP get laid poindexter

Ks !KansasxqvM joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 14 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,609

Change the things you're able to change, the other stuff will have to wait. Don't lie, nobody likes a liar, least of all themselves. I understand habits can be hard to break, so you'll have to work at it. Stop lying, lose weight. Start there.

Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,611

@previous (Ks !KansasxqvM)
i like that picture. heres another good one.

its relevant too

Anonymous D replied with this 15 years ago, 4 hours later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,721

@246,608 (floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc)
why are you such a dick?

Handel !khEOdtKF56 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 25 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,728

@246,438 (InvincibleAlphaMale)

This.

All I hear is whine, whine, whine.
Try being homosexual in a miserable homophobic cesspit.

floorboard !hbZVTk6JYc joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 9 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,734

@246,721 (D)
what do you mean? I'm loveable.

Triptych !6Suckfishs joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #246,739

@246,721 (D)
He's a pretty chill guy in my book.

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