I just feel like there’s only so far I can go here, with the way things are. I want to he someone else entirely. Different body, different personality, not something I could ever change in reality here. I genuinely feel like even if the exact same shit happened to me in my life, just by virtue in being in the body I want I’d be happier. I’d feel more me.
Like, I’m a dude and I love that. I really do. But I really think if I were a woman I’d be happier. There’s just so much about it that feels more me. But, I’m not gonna act like I could be trans. No harm or hate to anyone, but it just wouldn’t work for me. I’m 6’2 and a broad ass big dude. Physically, there’s not a feminine bone in my body and it just couldn’t work. I’d wanna be like half the height I am lmao.
So. Shifting is all I’ve found in terms of doing anything about it.