Anonymous B joined in and replied with this 6 months ago, 13 minutes later[^][v]#1,379,348
> But what about all the trauma that men experience and then get told to suck it up and work harder?
Those men need to stop being fucking pussies.
> Everyone always says men inflict trauma
Yeah because we are the stronger and frankly more badass gender. That is why militaries are all men because we kick more ass.
Anyway stop being a fucking pussy OP. Fucking weak faggot.
epoch flicker !!//ofCutyg (OP) replied with this 6 months ago, 12 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,379,358
@previous (E)
I’ve been with various women since then, but I think the problem I run into is that I want too hard to replicate that relationship because until my disorder started progressing, it truly was a best-friend kind of relationship.
So sometimes that manifests in me wanting to move too fast and scaring a woman away. Sometimes it manifests in me knowing that the woman can’t replace my ex, so I have sex with her just to fake intimacy. Sometimes it manifests in me projecting all of my ex’s qualities onto a person, speedrunning a relationship with them, the honeymoon phase ending and me realizing that I’m still not happy, and then burning the bridge.
As much as I bitch about being ugly or not getting attention from women, getting attention truly isn’t my problem it seems. I’m not turning a lot of heads, but at least a considerable amount of people statistically probably find me attractive, and in small doses of confidence I’ve taken some of the opportunities that have presented themselves to me.
You see, my problem is in keeping women. I’m often upfront about my status as medicated-ish bipolar 1 individual, and somewhere along the way I just become too much for them.
The autistic traits combined with the mood swings and weird aura are a lot to handle, so I don’t blame some of them.
Anonymous E replied with this 6 months ago, 13 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,379,360
@previous (epoch flicker !!//ofCutyg)
OK and what I see as a very honest reply.
As I see it you have this growing hate for your ex and you damn well know that is not healthy. Perhaps with the faults you possess, you are destined to have many relationships that fail.
On the plus side you are not destined to be an INCEL. So, with the many millions of women available to you...Make the most of THIS.
epoch flicker !!//ofCutyg (OP) replied with this 6 months ago, 6 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,379,362
@previous (E)
Listen, the thing is: I want a healthy, happy relationship that has nothing to do with my ex. I want to, myself, move on, because I know it's the right thing to do. The only thing that keeps me from doing it is fear. It's the fear that I'll never find a relationship that makes me feel what I felt with her. Even when I got into the only actual relationship I've been in after her, I still kept tabs on my ex daily. Looking back, I know it's fucked up, but I was working a stable job at the time and things were looking up for me, and I guess I flew too close to the sun and tried to force a serious relationship from a dating app encounter out of desperation.
I'll be the first one to say that I make some really stupid, fucked up, sometimes borderline evil decisions. I do feel remorse for a lot of them. Some of them, I'm genuinely starting to feel nothing for. For example: I have a sextape that I made with the longterm ex. Well, last year when I was staying at the house of the girl I tried a relationship with after her, I jerked off to that video after she had fallen asleep. In her fucking living room.
I don't think I'm a sociopath, because I think a genuine sociopath would feel absolutely no remorse. I do have a moral compass and I'm able to discern what is right or what is wrong. Whether or not I actually give a shit depends on what kind of mood I'm in.
Anonymous E replied with this 6 months ago, 13 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,379,363
@previous (epoch flicker !!//ofCutyg) > I don't think I'm a sociopath, because I think a genuine sociopath would feel absolutely no remorse. I do have a moral compass and I'm able to discern what is right or what is wrong. Whether or not I actually give a shit depends on what kind of mood I'm in.
My work requires using a lot of Calculus. It does not take Calculus to add your reply up and I come up with you, as a part time sociopath.
T-34 double-posted this 6 months ago, 2 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,379,417
@1,379,363 (E)
I thought most people took calculus in high school. Although I’d assume most people on this website didn’t go too high school so maybe that’s a fair brag.
T-34 triple-posted this 6 months ago, 3 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,379,418
I guess it depends on which calculus. I think most people take calculus 1 and 2 in high school and then maybe calculus 3 in college. I think for some STEM majors like CS you don’t even need calculus 3 at most universities.
F-35 joined in and replied with this 6 months ago, 2 minutes later, 15 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,379,447
@previous (boof)
I think dropping a nuclear weapon on Knoxville is a proportional response to my bitch mother in law who called me gay for buying a rose gold MacBook Air… for my daughter. Like what the fuck is wrong with you? I know you’re my wife’s mother, but I hate her, and she hates you, so I double hate you!