Topic: Todays is my birthday
Anonymous A started this discussion 3 days ago #125,295
Happy birthday to me
Anonymous B joined in and replied with this 3 days ago, 12 minutes later[^] [v] #1,357,896
I’m honestly so done. I’ve finally hit rock bottom. It’s 4am, and all the alcohol I’ve drank to numb the pain is finally coming out of my system, and I’m sitting here alone sobbing now, finally feeling in full force the gravity of what has happened.
Today was my 25th birthday. Long story short, I threw a birthday party for my “close” friends of about 10-15 people that I’ve known intimately for years and have been through a lot with, just for background.
I feel like every time i plan a party or get together, i have to constantly “remind” people of it in subtle ways in the coming days or they wont come. Almost like i have to beg them to be there. “What do you want on your pizza?” “Oh i cant wait to see you!” “Should i get wine?” Etc. , to keep it in their minds or they’ll find something else better.
Two of them forgot the party and made other plans. When i texted them if they were coming, they apologized and said they were going out of town. And i confronted them about forgetting the party i mentioned two weeks ago. And they were nonchalantly like “oh, sorry”. Many others canceled the day of for bullshit excuses like having to clean, not feeling good, “I’m just so tired” etc. One was even so irresponsible to drink herself into a stupor last night to the point she texted me the morning of and said she couldn’t be there because she was sick from drinking too much. Absolutely irresponsible to do that knowing you have somewhere to be tomorrow. It hurt me a lot. One canceled because we had a 40% chance of having a thunderstorm warning in the evening and they were “concerned about being in the rain.” It was sunny outside and has yet to rain 12 hrs later.
In the end, two of 15 showed up an hour after the party supposedly started. I was grateful, but honestly just sad and humiliated. I just wanted to be alone. Im sitting on $200 worth of food, decorations, and the most painful, my unopened birthday cake. I paid a lot for it and i was really looking forward to enjoying it with my friends. But now, i just want to trash it and not look at it.
You see, the reason this party meant so much for me, is because I’ve had an awful summer. Ive had three people close to me die. So I haven’t had much time to see people. And im a week out from a risky surgery that could end my life. My friends know this. but i don't talk about it constantly, because it is so draining to the vibe. but it has been mentioned. I just wanted to enjoy one last get together with the people I cared about. Ive never felt so sad, betrayed, and violated. I've finally hit rock bottom.
Today was my 25th birthday. Long story short, I threw a birthday party for my “close” friends of about 10-15 people that I’ve known intimately for years and have been through a lot with, just for background.
I feel like every time i plan a party or get together, i have to constantly “remind” people of it in subtle ways in the coming days or they wont come. Almost like i have to beg them to be there. “What do you want on your pizza?” “Oh i cant wait to see you!” “Should i get wine?” Etc. , to keep it in their minds or they’ll find something else better.
Two of them forgot the party and made other plans. When i texted them if they were coming, they apologized and said they were going out of town. And i confronted them about forgetting the party i mentioned two weeks ago. And they were nonchalantly like “oh, sorry”. Many others canceled the day of for bullshit excuses like having to clean, not feeling good, “I’m just so tired” etc. One was even so irresponsible to drink herself into a stupor last night to the point she texted me the morning of and said she couldn’t be there because she was sick from drinking too much. Absolutely irresponsible to do that knowing you have somewhere to be tomorrow. It hurt me a lot. One canceled because we had a 40% chance of having a thunderstorm warning in the evening and they were “concerned about being in the rain.” It was sunny outside and has yet to rain 12 hrs later.
In the end, two of 15 showed up an hour after the party supposedly started. I was grateful, but honestly just sad and humiliated. I just wanted to be alone. Im sitting on $200 worth of food, decorations, and the most painful, my unopened birthday cake. I paid a lot for it and i was really looking forward to enjoying it with my friends. But now, i just want to trash it and not look at it.
You see, the reason this party meant so much for me, is because I’ve had an awful summer. Ive had three people close to me die. So I haven’t had much time to see people. And im a week out from a risky surgery that could end my life. My friends know this. but i don't talk about it constantly, because it is so draining to the vibe. but it has been mentioned. I just wanted to enjoy one last get together with the people I cared about. Ive never felt so sad, betrayed, and violated. I've finally hit rock bottom.
Anonymous C joined in and replied with this 3 days ago, 9 minutes later, 22 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #1,357,898
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Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 3 days ago, 22 minutes later, 46 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #1,357,906
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Anonymous E joined in and replied with this 3 days ago, 1 minute later, 48 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #1,357,908
@1,357,896 (B)
> I’m honestly so done. I’ve finally hit rock bottom. It’s 4am, and all the alcohol I’ve drank to numb the pain is finally coming out of my system, and I’m sitting here alone sobbing now
Hang in there Matt.
> I’m honestly so done. I’ve finally hit rock bottom. It’s 4am, and all the alcohol I’ve drank to numb the pain is finally coming out of my system, and I’m sitting here alone sobbing now
Hang in there Matt.
Anonymous C replied with this 3 days ago, 11 minutes later, 59 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #1,357,911
Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 3 days ago, 7 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #1,357,913
Happa Birthda!
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 3 days ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #1,357,914
Dead !Pool..v42s joined in and replied with this 1 day ago, 2 days later, 2 days after the original post[^] [v] #1,358,568
Happy birthday!Pic not related.
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 1 day ago, 1 hour later, 2 days after the original post[^] [v] #1,358,579
I will shit on my face!
Anonymous H double-posted this 1 day ago, 35 seconds later, 2 days after the original post[^] [v] #1,358,580
Dead !Pool..v42s replied with this 15 hours ago, 14 hours later, 2 days after the original post[^] [v] #1,358,669
@previous (H)
Yeah, apparently Facebook specifically admitted they're using AI to generate users and content. The reason I got a bunch of that stuff is I was being lazy and just typing in birthday into the search bar to send birthday comments to people, and for months afterwards my feed would have 3 out of 7 pieces of content basically saying the same thing with AI generated body horror images.
It's me it's me, I'm the problem, it's me.
Yeah, apparently Facebook specifically admitted they're using AI to generate users and content. The reason I got a bunch of that stuff is I was being lazy and just typing in birthday into the search bar to send birthday comments to people, and for months afterwards my feed would have 3 out of 7 pieces of content basically saying the same thing with AI generated body horror images.
It's me it's me, I'm the problem, it's me.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC joined in and replied with this 15 hours ago, 8 minutes later, 2 days after the original post[^] [v] #1,358,672
@previous (Dead !Pool..v42s)
Many people, especially the elderly, can't recognize AI at all and it makes me nervous
Im on a facebook group for plants and someone who will post a picture of flowers with cat faces. So many people either ask where to buy seeds, or start praising god for his ability to create those plants
Many people, especially the elderly, can't recognize AI at all and it makes me nervous
Im on a facebook group for plants and someone who will post a picture of flowers with cat faces. So many people either ask where to buy seeds, or start praising god for his ability to create those plants
Dead !Pool..v42s replied with this 2 hours ago, 13 hours later, 3 days after the original post[^] [v] #1,358,776
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I also think half of those are not comments, but it also makes me feel sad and nervous cause my mom's like 70/71, and she's not dumb or anything but I know shed love those pics of 16 lanes of traffic all coming the same direction with oversized and distorted American flags barreling down some imaginary higheay
I also think half of those are not comments, but it also makes me feel sad and nervous cause my mom's like 70/71, and she's not dumb or anything but I know shed love those pics of 16 lanes of traffic all coming the same direction with oversized and distorted American flags barreling down some imaginary higheay