Notice: You have been identified as a bot, so no internal UID will be assigned to you. If you are a real person messing with your useragent, you should change it back to something normal.
Topic: Sometimes I break down into tears because I will never know what it feels like to be a hot woman
Anonymous A started this discussion 1 month ago#125,090
I’ve had these thoughts for so long. When I was 12/13 I wanted to troon out so bad. I pictured myself as a beautiful femboy. Smooth and hairless, with a curvy ass. I knew I had some “masculine” features, like my nose, but I could’ve gotten FFS.
I would’ve been such a beautiful woman. By this point, I’ve already become too old and masculine and fat to troon out. If I trooned out now, I would be one of the joke AGP trannies that people use as funny reaction images here. It’s just not an option.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 7 minutes later, 24 minutes after the original post[^][v]#1,356,594
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
It’s not fair. I see all these young girls living their best lives. They’ve been on HRT since before puberty, and they look so good. I know they’ll all make great boiwives some day. I wish I could’ve gotten the option to be a pretty boiwife.
Anonymous D replied with this 1 month ago, 44 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,356,603
@previous (A)
Yep. Everything comes to them easily. They get free everything. They have their choice of guys, careers, money, etc. They have charmed lives with no clue of what reality is like for most people.
Anonymous D replied with this 1 month ago, 3 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,356,617
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Not even talking rich. Any beautiful woman can go to a bar and find a man who is at least financially stable. I'm not saying he'll be a billionaire, but she won't have to ruin her life working just to survive. Life on easy mode.
Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU joined in and replied with this 1 month ago, 5 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,356,619
@previous (D)
I'm financially stable but if a woman doesn't work and has never worked I am not dating her. Few men want to pay 100% of an able bodied adult's expenses forever just because they're pretty. And the ones who do will just dump her when she turns 30 and then she's on her own.
Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU replied with this 1 month ago, 22 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,356,631
@previous (Father Dave !RsSxeehGwc)
Lol I don't think I've seen that before. He's correct and I hope that woman has gotten a job and re-evaluated her standards since then!
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 59 seconds later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,356,632
@1,356,606 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Well, the fact that they have penises make them boiwives. The ones that get their penises removed probably won’t get married, because the vast majority of men are disgusted by neovaginas. On the other hand, most men are fascinated by cocks, especially cute little ones like you typically see on dickgirls.
As far as my self-improvement: I’m not doing anything, really. I drink a lot of sugary soda, I never do any exercise, I don’t go to therapy or take my bipolar meds anymore, I don’t have a job or any savings anymore, I wear sports and music-related T-shirts and cargo shorts daily, and I’m not in school.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,639
@1,356,635 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
If I were to get a husband now, he would have to be a twink. I’m not oozing with the sexually attractive kind of masculinity, but I am oozing with the unattractive, hairy, lumpy kind of masculinity. There’s no way that I could pull a man that will take care of me at this point, and there’s no amount of surgery that can feminize my body to such an extent.
Anonymous A (OP) double-posted this 1 month ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,640
@1,356,637 (Father Dave !RsSxeehGwc)
I don’t need a citation, I just state what I observe. Men are obsessed with dicks. They talk about them all the time, usually their own, and they compare their dicks to other dicks nonstop. White men especially are obsessed with Black dicks, but they also like cute feminine white dicks too.
Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU replied with this 1 month ago, 4 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,642
@previous (A)
This may be true of gay or bisexual men to some degree, but, respectfully, you seem to spend an inordinate amount of time watching fetish pornography and it is warping your idea of what's normal. It also isn't making you happier or healthier or closer to getting a partner. You might be better served by going on a diet, taking a 20 minute walk outside every day, and joining a book club or something.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 4 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,644
@1,356,642 (Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU)
I don’t really spend that much time watching fetish porn. At most I watch interracial hypnosis porn for 5 hours a day, which I don’t think is too extreme compared to people who watch Netflix 24/7.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 5 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,651
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I don’t know how to become more attractive. I’ve been told plenty of times in my life that I’m attractive by men and women of varying ages and attractiveness levels. I have a chubby belly and fat face that I hide with a beard. I have very long eyelashes, which has been my most received compliment during my life. I’ve also been told before that I had a pretty smile, but that was before the depression got worse and I stopped taking good care of my teeth. Now they’re yellow and I have some tartar built up on them, and probably need a decent amount of dental work done, which I can’t reasonably accomplish right now.
Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU replied with this 1 month ago, 24 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,652
@1,356,644 (A)
I don't have an incredible active social life but between work and socializing and dating apps and cooking etc. I have probably about 4 hours of free time total per day (more on weekends obvs). So I think gooning 5 hours per day is a bit overkill. People who watch Netflix obsessively also have problems but at least in that case they can go out to a bar or a singles event and have something inoffensive to talk about. I'm not sure Sissy Hypno Goon sessions are as widely acceptable of a discussion topic as Season 2 of Stranger Things or Severance.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 1 month ago, 6 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,658
@1,356,651 (A)
1. Lose weight
2. Exercise
3. Eat healthier
4. Start a skincare routine with daily spf moisturizer
5. Get clothes that fit you properly
6. Get a better haircut
7. Use body lotion
6. Get manicures and pedicures
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,661
@1,356,652 (Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU)
I think it should be more normalized. Porn is just a hobby, after all, and I see it as a legitimate art form. By the way: I don’t watch sissy hypno. It’s more BNWO-oriented “brainwashing” content with an emphasis on the worship of Black dicks rather than feminizing oneself, though feminization themes do pop up in the content from time to time.
Dead !Pool..v42s double-posted this 1 month ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,663
@1,356,661 (A)
Porn isn't just a hobby, there's some attractive women that have Ted talks about it, maybe that will keep your attention long enough to learn about dopamine problems associated with pornography
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 54 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,664
@1,356,658 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
1. Hard to lose weight when you’re addicted to Mountain Dew and drink around 100 ounces per day.
2. Too self-conscious to go to the gym. I don’t believe in just walking as an exercise. I believe that it’s gotta be intense activity to make a difference.
3. I eat whatever is available, which often consists of frozen meals or cheap, pasta-based meals.
4. I’m not sure how to do skincare. Lotion kinda makes me feel weird.
5. My clothes fit me pretty well. They’re form-fitting, it’s just that my form isn’t attractive.
6. I have shoulder-length hair, and usually it’s either up in a bun and cover with a baseball hat, or it’s brushed and washed with Garnier Fructis shampoo and left down.
7. See 4.
8. I don’t know how to do that. I bite my fingernails and toenails quite often.
Anonymous A (OP) double-posted this 1 month ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,665
@1,356,663 (Dead !Pool..v42s)
What’s wrong with feeling pleasure? If anything, gooning is a form of self-care because I’m making love to myself. At the end of the day, I’m a hedonist.
Dead !Pool..v42s replied with this 1 month ago, 17 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,668
@1,356,665 (A)
Like I said, there's some Ted talks about how it effects your dopamine responses. I figured breaking down in tears has something to do with some dopamine imbalance.
At the end of the day it's night
Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU replied with this 1 month ago, 4 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,669
@1,356,661 (A)
Porn is incredibly normalized, its a multi-billion dollar industry and conservatively half of all men watch regularly (probably 75%+ for men under the age of 40). It just isn't a socially acceptable conversation to discuss in public and it probably won't ever be. You will need to just find something else to talk about like a hobby or sports or your job or something.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 3 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,670
@1,356,667 (Father Dave !RsSxeehGwc)
I derive pleasure from hating myself and my whiteness, and my fragile attempts at masculine sexuality. Maybe the problem is that I haven’t had an orgasm since Tuesday. I tried Wednesday night, but after a few hours I couldn’t have orgasm. I tried my usual BNWO content, and it wasn’t doing it for me, so I switched to videos of women farting and I got close but still couldn’t cum. Then I switched to a very cinematic video of my ex and I from when we first got together at 20, and it was extremely passionate sex, but I lost my erection and broke down crying.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 7 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,674
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Women are taught grooming from a young age, typically, because they're expected to be as pretty and feminine as possible. It's ingrained in them by the time they're teenagers, and as the old saying goes, you can't teach an old dog new tricks.
If I was a woman, chances are I'd have been taught from a young age how to take care of myself. Granted, my mom doesn't really shower all that often, so maybe she wouldn't have taught me those things. I don't have any sisters, so I have no way to tell if she would've taught me or not. From what I can gather, she was very attractive when she was younger, and so were here parents, so she kind of coasted on hitting the genetic lottery, so to say. For almost the entirety of my life, she hasn't worked and has just been a stay-at-home mom while my dad works himself to death, but she's also an undiagnosed, unmedicated, and in-denial bipolar, maniacal malignant narcissist who abused my dad relentlessly for most of my life, and she was his first everything, so he's never known any different and never made the decision to leave her.
Even if I was the female version of who I currently am right now, I still wouldn't have trouble finding a man at all. That's just the way it works.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 1 month ago, 7 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,680
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I truly don't want that though. If I could go back in time and start taking HRT and transition at 12, I would 200% do it in a heartbeat. But I can't do that, so instead I have to live my life as a man, and truthfully: I want a wife. I want be the masculine rock that she can rely on. I want to make her a mother, and I want to raise our children together, instilling them with important values such as love, gratitude, and ambition.
> If I were to get a husband now, he would have to be a twink. I’m not oozing with the sexually attractive kind of masculinity, but I am oozing with the unattractive, hairy, lumpy kind of masculinity. There’s no way that I could pull a man that will take care of me at this point, and there’s no amount of surgery that can feminize my body to such an extent.
> And the ones who do will just dump her when she turns 30 and then she's on her own.
This is an old problem and a solved problem.
Marriage used to allow women to cash in on their youth, and be guranteed a provider for the rest of their lives.
Any real mutual responsibility was taken out of marriage, and now it's a mostly useless formality that doesn't help anyone but lawyers.
Returning to a system where people were expected to do their part, and punished for breaking the deal, would fix it. Unfortunately democrats are completely against that, and prioritize a woman's ability to break up a family because of vague feelings even if it costs everyone, especially any kids, material damage in addition to emotional distress.
It's an ideology that thinks you can remove consequences without a cost, and never asks why so many societies settled on these systems to begin with. It's the same lack of thought process that believes we can reduce harm in the world if we stop punishing the violent criminals that get caught.
Fake anon !ZkUt8arUCU replied with this 1 month ago, 12 hours later, 21 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,356,828
@previous (N)
Making women permanently tie the rest of their lives to some guy they've known for 1-2 years on the hopes that he wouldn't turn out to be an alcoholic or an abuser or gambling/drug addict, or philanderer, etc. was a very bad system and it is good it ended. Now you as a man will need to actually prove your worth on the dating market rather than having society structured such that women are forced to roll the dice with you.
> Making women permanently tie the rest of their lives to some guy they've known for 1-2 years on the hopes that he wouldn't turn out to be an alcoholic or an abuser or gambling/drug addict, or philanderer, etc. was a very bad system and it is good it ended.
That system had flaws, but it was sustainable. There's many ways it could be improved.
> Now you as a man will need to actually prove your worth on the dating market rather than having society structured such that women are forced to roll the dice with you.
Giving women the option of an actual binding marriage isn't forcing them into anything. Women could evaluate the risk, and decide before. Now there is no serious option for a marriage like that.
And there's no way for a man to definitively prove he won't leave her, many women pick men who end up abusive or abandon them under the current system. The new laws do make it easier for him to do that.
> I’ve had these thoughts for so long. When I was 12/13 I wanted to troon out so bad. I pictured myself as a beautiful femboy. Smooth and hairless, with a curvy ass. I knew I had some “masculine” features, like my nose, but I could’ve gotten FFS. > > I would’ve been such a beautiful woman. By this point, I’ve already become too old and masculine and fat to troon out. If I trooned out now, I would be one of the joke AGP trannies that people use as funny reaction images here. It’s just not an option. > > I want to be wanted so bad. I want to be desired. > > I want to feel sexy, but it’s far too late.
A lot of women won’t ever know how it feels to be a sexy woman either.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 1 month ago, 10 minutes later, 2 days after the original post[^][v]#1,357,232
@previous (M)
My Aunt is Filipino and my Uncle was crazy and would beat her and the kids. She didn't feel okay about divorcing and waited it out until he died of early Alzheimers
Anonymous M replied with this 1 month ago, 3 minutes later, 2 days after the original post[^][v]#1,357,235
@previous (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
All too common there, unfortunately. I used to live in Manila. They have this weird mix of strict Catholicism and the pre-Christian culture and beliefs of their ancestors. Still a wonderful place with great people.
> Like allowing women to vote and hold bank accounts
You're repeating that myth even though you know its a lie.
Women were not banned from opening bank accounts, there is no record of any law stating that and there was never any documented cases of a bank blocking women from opening accounts.
> Also, even with binding marriages, men would just disappear or start fucking someone else
A binding marriage would punish him for that, like requiring the party at fault to give up privileges in a divorce and justifying alimony.
So you form your beliefs on unverified statements rather than needing any actual sources.
We're living in a time where anyone can verify any statement quickly at any time, and yet there's people that will make any excuse to keep believing in unsourced claims for years rather than spending 1 minute checking.