Topic: I feel deeply troubled.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI started this discussion 1 year ago #121,148
I think I may have been re-masculinizing over the course of a few months. I noticed I’ve been getting misgendered more frequently than I used to. A couple of years prior I rarely ever got called ‘sir’ and while there are still those who naturally address me as ‘ma’am,’ this begs the question if somehow I started to re-masculinize.
I don’t understand how though. I am currently taking spironolactone and finasteride daily. I keep up with my estrogen injections every 14 days. I even dedicated a specific day (Wednesday) for this and I acknowledge that due to a new found fear of needles, which suddenly came out of nowhere, I do delay it to Sunday. I still get myself to do it on Sunday though.
My testosterone is well-suppressed with my last tested level being 18, with free T being 1.9, and my last estrogen level being 176.0 as of 24 September 2024. There was only one change to my dose in estrogen over the course of a year from 1 mL to 1/2 mL. I’m not sure if this was enough but I have started to noticed slight differences in my appearance whenever I look in the mirror. I’m just trying to figure out if it’s just me tripping over nothing or if I have really re-masculinized.
I don’t understand how though. I am currently taking spironolactone and finasteride daily. I keep up with my estrogen injections every 14 days. I even dedicated a specific day (Wednesday) for this and I acknowledge that due to a new found fear of needles, which suddenly came out of nowhere, I do delay it to Sunday. I still get myself to do it on Sunday though.
My testosterone is well-suppressed with my last tested level being 18, with free T being 1.9, and my last estrogen level being 176.0 as of 24 September 2024. There was only one change to my dose in estrogen over the course of a year from 1 mL to 1/2 mL. I’m not sure if this was enough but I have started to noticed slight differences in my appearance whenever I look in the mirror. I’m just trying to figure out if it’s just me tripping over nothing or if I have really re-masculinized.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) double-posted this 1 year ago, 11 minutes later[^] [v] #1,324,964
The thing that bothers me is the decision from my doctor came because he noticed that my liver was producing extra enzymes. A side effect that I’ve read could likely be attributed to spironolactone. Interestingly enough, outside of the United States, there exists an alternative medication that doesn’t pose such risks. Unfortunately, said medication is illegal in the U.S. regardless of its variety of other medical usages.
My doctor prescribed me another medication to help with my liver enzymes and fatty liver in order to work alongside the spironolactone. The amount of pills I have to swallow on a daily basis makes things overwhelming, but they tend to make it easy for me. There are times when I suspect medical transitioning is intentionally being sabotaged to make it riskier as a way to discourage people from engaging with it.
I just wish I knew why suddenly I’m getting misgendered more frequently.
My doctor prescribed me another medication to help with my liver enzymes and fatty liver in order to work alongside the spironolactone. The amount of pills I have to swallow on a daily basis makes things overwhelming, but they tend to make it easy for me. There are times when I suspect medical transitioning is intentionally being sabotaged to make it riskier as a way to discourage people from engaging with it.
I just wish I knew why suddenly I’m getting misgendered more frequently.
Anonymous B joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 32 minutes later, 43 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #1,324,968
Nobody cares sir.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 44 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #1,324,974
Which medication is illegal?
Also, what else are you doing to pass?
Also, what else are you doing to pass?
Anonymous D joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 29 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #1,324,982
@OP
No matter what you think, it still doesn't alter the fact you're still a homo want to be.
No matter what you think, it still doesn't alter the fact you're still a homo want to be.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 11 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,324,985
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 1 year ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,324,988
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 49 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,324,990
@1,324,974 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
Fortunately, I haven’t had to do much. Basically avoid heavier or baggy clothing since that increases the risks of getting misgendered for me. More form fitting clothing seems to indicate in people’s minds that I’m female. But something must have changed because I noticed that I get misgendered even with this.
Fortunately, I haven’t had to do much. Basically avoid heavier or baggy clothing since that increases the risks of getting misgendered for me. More form fitting clothing seems to indicate in people’s minds that I’m female. But something must have changed because I noticed that I get misgendered even with this.
Anonymous E joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 18 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,324,998
@previous (La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI)
Does your bible approve of all the drugs you're taking to role play?
Does your bible approve of all the drugs you're taking to role play?
Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 3 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,001
Sometimes I get mislabeled as muppet on a bad week or two. Think it's about how I'm doing on the inside.
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 1 year ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,002
@1,324,990 (La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI)
It could be something simple like you need to use an spf moisturizer, or that your hair looks weird or unkempt
Its not necessarily an issue with your meds
What is the illegal medication?
It could be something simple like you need to use an spf moisturizer, or that your hair looks weird or unkempt
Its not necessarily an issue with your meds
What is the illegal medication?
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Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 16 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,005
When someone calls you sir, they are not misgendering you.
Meta !Sober//iZs joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 1 hour later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,014
> There are times when I suspect medical transitioning is intentionally being sabotaged to make it riskier as a way to discourage people from engaging with it.
Honestly when you consider what they're trying to accomplish, it's amazing it works as well as it does.
Honestly when you consider what they're trying to accomplish, it's amazing it works as well as it does.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 6 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,017
@1,325,002 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
That’s what I’m thinking too. Fortunately, a friend at my workplace, and someone who I consider a sister, sort of helps me when it comes to skincare. Though she thinks I look like a little girl despite my height, but she doesn’t think this in a demeaning way.
That’s what I’m thinking too. Fortunately, a friend at my workplace, and someone who I consider a sister, sort of helps me when it comes to skincare. Though she thinks I look like a little girl despite my height, but she doesn’t think this in a demeaning way.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) double-posted this 1 year ago, 13 minutes later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,021
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 1 year ago, 1 hour later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,032
Anonymous I joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 20 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,040
No matter how flat you make a pancake, it’s still got two sides.La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 15 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,041
I think I might have found a reason for the misgendering. I may have acquired a bit of muscle mass due to my job, which requires me to sometimes lift heavy objects. Thinking about how some muscular (cis) women get misgendered, intentionally or as a joke, it makes me wonder if a similar thing might be happening here. My upper arms both look and feel larger. The same for my upper legs too. Though given how my testosterone is suppressed, I can’t imagine I’d get much bigger.
@previous (I)
This analogy doesn’t make much sense.
@previous (I)
This analogy doesn’t make much sense.
Anonymous I replied with this 1 year ago, 57 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,044
!tr.t4dJfuU replied with this 1 year ago, 3 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,046
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 7 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,047
Anonymous G replied with this 1 year ago, 2 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,048
Meta !Sober//iZs replied with this 1 year ago, 45 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,059
Anonymous E replied with this 1 year ago, 15 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,060
@1,325,047 (La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI)
A decade of community college and you fail to see how scissors would...
And no I have no clue how you can function with so many off putting drugs in your system.
A decade of community college and you fail to see how scissors would...
And no I have no clue how you can function with so many off putting drugs in your system.
Anonymous J joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 40 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,063
Does this mean you are back to being Cato, or are you fighting it this time?
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 1 year ago, 5 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,068
@1,325,059 (Meta !Sober//iZs)
Many doctors don't know much about transitioning and don't care to know. They also don't want any heat for fuckups
So they write prescriptions for very low doses of hrt, that do nearly nearly nothing
Many doctors don't know much about transitioning and don't care to know. They also don't want any heat for fuckups
So they write prescriptions for very low doses of hrt, that do nearly nearly nothing
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La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 10 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,075
@1,325,060 (E)
Female hormones are off putting? Damn, brah, you so alpha you have other men sucking your dick while pretending you ain’t a faggot.
Female hormones are off putting? Damn, brah, you so alpha you have other men sucking your dick while pretending you ain’t a faggot.
ʞooʞ replied with this 1 year ago, 1 minute later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,076
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 32 seconds later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,077
@1,325,068 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I think that’s what happened with my first endocrinologist. He prescribed me shitty estrogen patches.
I think that’s what happened with my first endocrinologist. He prescribed me shitty estrogen patches.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) double-posted this 1 year ago, 1 minute later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,079
Green !!bO/s3MBcD joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 49 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,080
Drinking herbal teas will help. I recommend chamomile and other floral blends like rosehip. Carry rosehip tea in a thermos and sip from it when you're out.
ʞooʞ replied with this 1 year ago, 55 minutes later, 11 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,083
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 1 year ago, 52 minutes later, 12 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,091
Anonymous L joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 26 minutes later, 12 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,095
Gee I wonder if it’s because of the fact that you are biologically male
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 1 hour later, 14 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,100
@1,325,080 (Green !!bO/s3MBcD)
That actually sounds good. I really should get back into drinking teas. I think it's because I work a job that sometimes requires me to lift a lot of shit and I always get stuck doing that. I'm not sure since I'm weak compared to the other workers there, and yes, including the cis girls.
That actually sounds good. I really should get back into drinking teas. I think it's because I work a job that sometimes requires me to lift a lot of shit and I always get stuck doing that. I'm not sure since I'm weak compared to the other workers there, and yes, including the cis girls.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) double-posted this 1 year ago, 1 hour later, 15 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,113
@1,324,974 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I completely forgot the name of the medication. I know it exists since it was something I found a long time ago while I was still researching gender reassignment. I’ve been searching for the name ever since, but I do know it’s a drug that is used mainly in Europe, but banned entirely in the United States.
@1,325,063 (J)
I was never Cato, you tard. You were trolled.
@1,324,998 (E)
You act like I’m stupid enough to take biblical scripture as anything more than parables to live by. I don’t subscribe to biblical literalism like you do. I reflect on scripture when I want to learn more about Christ and his teachings. American Christianity has become an apostasy. Nobody in this country ever really does anything Christ said to do and they’d rather be money changers. I greatly admire and respect the word of Christ. I only wish those who claim they do actually do.
I completely forgot the name of the medication. I know it exists since it was something I found a long time ago while I was still researching gender reassignment. I’ve been searching for the name ever since, but I do know it’s a drug that is used mainly in Europe, but banned entirely in the United States.
@1,325,063 (J)
I was never Cato, you tard. You were trolled.
@1,324,998 (E)
You act like I’m stupid enough to take biblical scripture as anything more than parables to live by. I don’t subscribe to biblical literalism like you do. I reflect on scripture when I want to learn more about Christ and his teachings. American Christianity has become an apostasy. Nobody in this country ever really does anything Christ said to do and they’d rather be money changers. I greatly admire and respect the word of Christ. I only wish those who claim they do actually do.
pew joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 8 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,136
how would decreasing estrogen not cause this
its kind of a wild year maybe thats affected it
its kind of a wild year maybe thats affected it
Anonymous E replied with this 1 year ago, 2 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,147
@1,325,113 (La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI)
Do you tend towards Cannibalism?
I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in you. (John 6.53)
If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away” is a verse from the Bible, Matthew 5:29:
"Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back" Luke 6:30
I suggested you look at the Benedictine Monks instead of becoming a Nun. Very close to you and they excel at making Ceramics. You could learn to make Dildo's for the Nuns.
https://saintandrewsabbey.com
They came from Europe prior to this location.
Do you tend towards Cannibalism?
I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in you. (John 6.53)
If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away” is a verse from the Bible, Matthew 5:29:
"Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back" Luke 6:30
I suggested you look at the Benedictine Monks instead of becoming a Nun. Very close to you and they excel at making Ceramics. You could learn to make Dildo's for the Nuns.
https://saintandrewsabbey.com
They came from Europe prior to this location.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 1 hour later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,155
@previous (E)
I have long given up trying to understand the purpose of your posts. You have a long history of posting anti-religious shit that it raises the question as to why you don't just come out an atheist. I don't subscribe to biblical literalism, this has only done more harm than good over the centuries. These verses have a metaphorical meaning, but I just do not want to look up the full chapters at the moment for context.
I have long given up trying to understand the purpose of your posts. You have a long history of posting anti-religious shit that it raises the question as to why you don't just come out an atheist. I don't subscribe to biblical literalism, this has only done more harm than good over the centuries. These verses have a metaphorical meaning, but I just do not want to look up the full chapters at the moment for context.
boof joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 41 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,158
business idea: Fake holy bibles. From the exterior, it has every appearance and feel of a holy bible. But open a few dozen pages in, and a fine quality dildo is revealed within hole-cut pages. You can also buy a version that looks like it was made for a convent 250 years ago.
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 1 minute later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,160
@previous (boof)
> fake holy bibles
I'm pretty sure Trump already has this covered and you can also save some money by just reprinting the King James Version too.
> fake holy bibles
I'm pretty sure Trump already has this covered and you can also save some money by just reprinting the King James Version too.
boof replied with this 1 year ago, 53 seconds later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,161
Anonymous E replied with this 1 year ago, 7 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,162
@1,325,155 (La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI)> long history of posting anti-religious shit
Religions have some terrific holidays. Also on many business trips I would attend Sunday's at a church service - Most often at Catholic Churches. Early years as a teen at some terrific revival events because of the music.
I support people needing crutches. I do NOT support the Pedophile Catholic Church.
IF You desire a crutch I have NO Problem with that. And I am serious about you at least looking at
Oh I am a student of Zen.
https://saintandrewsabbey.com
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 28 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,168
@previous (E)
If you don't support the Catholic Church, then why were they the denomination for which you attended Sunday service?
If you don't support the Catholic Church, then why were they the denomination for which you attended Sunday service?
Anonymous E replied with this 1 year ago, 7 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,169
@previous (La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI)
I stopped attending when the news was loaded with the horrid amounts of Pedophilia publicity.
The last church services I attended were locally at a Greek Orthodox Church with a Girl Friend.
Next year in your hood try the Greek Festival - You just missed the Sept even this year.
https://stsch.org/avgreekfest
I stopped attending when the news was loaded with the horrid amounts of Pedophilia publicity.
The last church services I attended were locally at a Greek Orthodox Church with a Girl Friend.
Next year in your hood try the Greek Festival - You just missed the Sept even this year.
https://stsch.org/avgreekfest
La Reina Catalina !j0siCathyI (OP) replied with this 1 year ago, 20 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,176
Anonymous O joined in and replied with this 1 year ago, 14 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,325,217
@OP
Don't worry, sir, you can't "re-masculinize" if you're already a male.
Don't worry, sir, you can't "re-masculinize" if you're already a male.