Topic: My struggles with depression.
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I started this discussion 15 years ago #11,563
I have tried to kill myself and think about putting myself to death all the time.
swamplights !!V3J448+/B joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 44 seconds later[^] [v] #208,178
How long has that been going on?
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,180
sluggy joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 4 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,182
How did you try to kill yourself? Did you use the spoon method?
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 6 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,186
hamfist !!snnYcROO9 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 7 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,188
oh ok
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 4 minutes later, 12 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,192
The only thing that will give me enough strength to try again is to meet another woman.
orc !WBRXcNtpf. joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 17 seconds later, 12 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,193
Sometimes it seems most people who try to kill themselves are inherently attention seekers. Most end up in the 'mergency room multiple times. I've read stories about doctors who get fed up at seeing certain people many times, treating their situation as mundane "same old, same old" but helping them anyway because, hey it's their job. I think it's people who purposely kill themselves the wrong way so they can go on vacation. It takes a special kind of practitioner to say, "You know what? Fuck it. DO IT THIS WAY." And never have to see that person again.Anonymous G joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 35 seconds later, 13 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,194
@208,192 (Seph !Se2qkvOR8I)
You've been depressed for over 12 years? Were you diagnosed as a young boy or are you in your thirties?
You've been depressed for over 12 years? Were you diagnosed as a young boy or are you in your thirties?
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 6 minutes later, 19 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,199
I don't believe you.
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 8 minutes later, 27 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,203
@208,194 (G)
I was diagnosed when I was 12 with major depressive disorder. Later the diagnoses was changed to bipolar.
I was diagnosed when I was 12 with major depressive disorder. Later the diagnoses was changed to bipolar.
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Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) double-posted this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 30 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,204
Anonymous H replied with this 15 years ago, 37 seconds later, 30 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,205
Protip: OP is lying.
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 59 seconds later, 31 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,206
Anonymous H replied with this 15 years ago, 6 minutes later, 38 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,208
@previous (Seph !Se2qkvOR8I)
It doesn't matter. Any method of proof I suggested would be rejected. You are but a flimsy persona.
It doesn't matter. Any method of proof I suggested would be rejected. You are but a flimsy persona.
orc !WBRXcNtpf. replied with this 15 years ago, 4 minutes later, 42 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,209
@208,204 (Seph !Se2qkvOR8I)Then your other ones probably weren't that bad. Did you chop a limb off? Did you jump off a platform several stories high?
Drug overdoses are unpredictable and unreliable. :c Oh. Well, why am I bothering? If you want a surefire way to kill yourself just do it thoroughly and slowly. That way you'll know when it's working.
Anonymous I joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 5 minutes later, 47 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,212
Kill yourself so hard you die to death. Sheesh, it's not that hard.
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 4 minutes later, 51 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,215
orc !WBRXcNtpf. replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 52 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #208,216
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 1 hour later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,246
@previous (orc !WBRXcNtpf.)
I cant buy a gun because of the mental illness. I dont think I will kill myself unless I meet a girl.
I cant buy a gun because of the mental illness. I dont think I will kill myself unless I meet a girl.
sluggy replied with this 15 years ago, 33 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,247
hamfist !!snnYcROO9 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 4 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,250
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 20 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,251
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) double-posted this 15 years ago, 23 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,252
hamfist !!snnYcROO9 replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,253
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,255
hamfist !!snnYcROO9 replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,258
sluggy replied with this 15 years ago, 3 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,259
@208,251 (Seph !Se2qkvOR8I)
I know how you feel. I see women at work and on my way to and from work. It's frustrating. I don't even fantasy about women having sex with me. My fantasies are all doing stuff to women or if actual fucking, it's from behind and of questionable consent. Not exactly rape, but I can't really even fantasize about a woman having sex with me because it's something she wants to do. I really find the idea to be too ridiculous.
I know how you feel. I see women at work and on my way to and from work. It's frustrating. I don't even fantasy about women having sex with me. My fantasies are all doing stuff to women or if actual fucking, it's from behind and of questionable consent. Not exactly rape, but I can't really even fantasize about a woman having sex with me because it's something she wants to do. I really find the idea to be too ridiculous.
sluggy double-posted this 15 years ago, 51 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,260
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 33 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,261
hamfist !!snnYcROO9 replied with this 15 years ago, 41 seconds later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,262
Seph !Se2qkvOR8I (OP) replied with this 15 years ago, 2 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,263
orc !WBRXcNtpf. replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,266
Freecode !!4IKKtS9GG joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 8 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,277
It gets better.
hamfist !!snnYcROO9 replied with this 15 years ago, 1 minute later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,279
Freecode !!4IKKtS9GG replied with this 15 years ago, 3 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,281
Unintentional Jackass !LASXURl1b6 joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 18 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,291
Lol. It doesn't get better, but oh well, I'm sure you've accepted that.<-- This speech, if you're actually new to feeling suicidal.
Suicide has been playing in the back of my head for years, but at this point I'm just "whatever" and go on with my daily life. My mum expressly told me she didn't want to bury her son, so I'm waiting until she goes so that I don't hurt her. Maybe I'll have a better life then and not want to kill myself. Hopefully I'll be old enough that I'll have someone else to give me reason to live. Unless your parents are dead, or cunts, I advise that you at least give yourself this reason.
Or something.
sluggy replied with this 15 years ago, 2 hours later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,350
@previous (Unintentional Jackass !LASXURl1b6)
That image seems to miss the point completely. Suicidal people do have things to lose. It sounds like they don't, but that's just because you are thinking in terms of they are going to kill themselves. Most suicidal people don't succeed in killing themselves.
That image seems to miss the point completely. Suicidal people do have things to lose. It sounds like they don't, but that's just because you are thinking in terms of they are going to kill themselves. Most suicidal people don't succeed in killing themselves.
Homestar !RUNNERV7vk joined in and replied with this 15 years ago, 3 hours later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,398
@208,291 (Unintentional Jackass !LASXURl1b6)
The flaw in that image is that suicidal people are depressed and wouldn't enjoy doing any of those things.
The flaw in that image is that suicidal people are depressed and wouldn't enjoy doing any of those things.
sluggy replied with this 15 years ago, 35 minutes later, 10 hours after the original post[^] [v] #208,402
@previous (Homestar !RUNNERV7vk)
yea. if you are too depressed to masturbate, i doubt you're gonna travel to machu picchu to discover the truth behind ancient alien visitors. Anyone who hasn't had severe depression can't understand. Everyone has those days where doing anything is hard. I assume that is how people imagine depression. They don't understand the lack of enjoyment or the lack of any motivation. Just telling someone to get out when getting out is a terrible ordeal and contributing to your suicidal thoughts is oblivious at best.
yea. if you are too depressed to masturbate, i doubt you're gonna travel to machu picchu to discover the truth behind ancient alien visitors. Anyone who hasn't had severe depression can't understand. Everyone has those days where doing anything is hard. I assume that is how people imagine depression. They don't understand the lack of enjoyment or the lack of any motivation. Just telling someone to get out when getting out is a terrible ordeal and contributing to your suicidal thoughts is oblivious at best.