Anonymous A started this discussion 2 years ago#114,993
Can't say I blame her, yet my older siblings do. I relate to them but I cannot stay mad at my mommy, I've been there myself afterall, just wanting something to make it all go away. This is beyond that though, this is dependency, yet my siblings still treat it as a choice which has been made, something mom is choosing against us. There's anger and sadness because of this but I keep trying to tell them that the so called choice is just another part of the disease. I am the youngest sibling yet most "familiar" with her condition, I've learned to assume she could be drunk at any moment, or already is getting to that point. I have learned that playing caf and mouse is pointless, Ffs I tell them, you are not going to guilt trip mom into being sober. It's not possible though, they are too emotional to understand. So like always, I'm pretending this or that, yeah, I'm so hurt, so shocked. I truly must be the victim even though it's my mom who is dying through alcoholism right? It's so pathetic, the way people cloud their judgements and poison their well of feelings is a problem that not even God has put a end to. I just want the problem to be treated as it really is but people want their liquor and they will deny the real harm it has on some of them, it's just a choice in their mind. I feel like I'm paying for that.