Topic: I might kill myself
Anonymous A started this discussion 3 years ago #103,474
My life is doomed with really no hope for repair. I will spend the rest of my years alone because I'm a weak omega male and incapable of change. I'm an emotional abuser, a cheater, and I rendered myself dead to the only serious girlfriend I have ever had.
Bitch didn't even brush her teeth but I tied my entire self-worth to her and now everyone in my town knows I'm a psychopath.
Being homeschooled and discovering /b/ at age 12 really fucked me up more than it should've.
Bitch didn't even brush her teeth but I tied my entire self-worth to her and now everyone in my town knows I'm a psychopath.
Being homeschooled and discovering /b/ at age 12 really fucked me up more than it should've.
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Kook !!rcSrAtaAC joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 1 hour later[^] [v] #1,167,249
Why were you abusive?
Anonymous C joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 13 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,250
What's your financial situation and job like?
Maybe consider moving to Thailand or some shit.
Even people with online degrees and no career to speak of can teach English in places like that lol. We even have a member of our community here that did that. He also just so happens to be a psychopath and not a very intelligent one at that, so if he can do it, I'm sure you can too.
Maybe consider moving to Thailand or some shit.
Even people with online degrees and no career to speak of can teach English in places like that lol. We even have a member of our community here that did that. He also just so happens to be a psychopath and not a very intelligent one at that, so if he can do it, I'm sure you can too.
Green !StaYqkzUPc joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 3 hours later, 4 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,256
I'm a beta soy cuck and I'm happy. You should embrace it π
πΉππ π joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 15 minutes later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,257
You're gonna kill yourself cause of a meme lol
Anonymous F joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 3 hours later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,265
Don't blame the internet, it didn't turn me into an abusive psychopath. The variable here is you.
Green !StaYqkzUPc replied with this 3 years ago, 7 hours later, 16 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,327
Why don't the OPs of these interesting threads ever stick about? I'd have a proper good chinwag about this that's for true.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 3 years ago, 3 hours later, 19 hours after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,369
@1,167,249 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
> Why were you abusive?
My mother was very emotionally abusive. Bipolar as hell, and refused to get treatment. I was always really shy and backwards, and my symptoms of bipolar really started to show when I was 21. Went on and off my meds, and I fell into the same pattern that my mom was in. Emotional abuse to try and transfer my pain onto someone else. I wasn't a physical abuser, but my ex told people I was. I also wasn't like that all the time; most of the time I was pretty sweet and caring, but whenever I would fall into an extreme bad mood I took it out on her and degraded the shit out of her. It was ugly and she got tired of it and cut me out.
@1,167,250 (C)
> What's your financial situation and job like?
Terrible. I never went to college and really don't have much drive to get out there and find a good job that doesn't require a degree. Plus, a lot of those jobs require shift work, and working evenings always puts me in a super deep depression. I hate working evenings and nights more than anything. I want to work day shift, Monday through Friday. Sadly those jobs are reserved for people with degrees that can get an office job.
@1,167,256 (Green !StaYqkzUPc)
> I'm a beta soy cuck and I'm happy. You should embrace it π
I am a cuck too. I convinced my ex to have sex with like 4 or 5 black dudes throughout the 6 years we were together.
@1,167,265 (F)
> Don't blame the internet, it didn't turn me into an abusive psychopath. The variable here is you.
Nah, like I said, I was homeschooled and didn't get the social interaction I needed to develop. Before homeschooling I was a mini-Chad, all the popular girls crushed on me and I was the quarterback of the football team. My parents homeschooled my because my mom thought that God spoke to her in a dream and told her it was the right thing to do. During my homeschooling, my sleep schedule went to shit, and since my dad was usually at work during the day, and my mom was unstable as fuck, I didn't do any actual work. I was technically unschooled for a couple of years. I just stayed up all night browsing 4chan. I posted a lot of nudes of myself on 4chan when I was 12. Looking back I realize how illegal that was, but I needed the attention. I sometimes wonder if those nudes are still floating around out there somewhere in some weird pedo communities. Kimmo Alm probably has them on his hard drive.
@previous (Green !StaYqkzUPc)
> Why don't the OPs of these interesting threads ever stick about? I'd have a proper good chinwag about this that's for true.
I don't check this website that often, usually once a day or so.
> Why were you abusive?
My mother was very emotionally abusive. Bipolar as hell, and refused to get treatment. I was always really shy and backwards, and my symptoms of bipolar really started to show when I was 21. Went on and off my meds, and I fell into the same pattern that my mom was in. Emotional abuse to try and transfer my pain onto someone else. I wasn't a physical abuser, but my ex told people I was. I also wasn't like that all the time; most of the time I was pretty sweet and caring, but whenever I would fall into an extreme bad mood I took it out on her and degraded the shit out of her. It was ugly and she got tired of it and cut me out.
@1,167,250 (C)
> What's your financial situation and job like?
Terrible. I never went to college and really don't have much drive to get out there and find a good job that doesn't require a degree. Plus, a lot of those jobs require shift work, and working evenings always puts me in a super deep depression. I hate working evenings and nights more than anything. I want to work day shift, Monday through Friday. Sadly those jobs are reserved for people with degrees that can get an office job.
@1,167,256 (Green !StaYqkzUPc)
> I'm a beta soy cuck and I'm happy. You should embrace it π
I am a cuck too. I convinced my ex to have sex with like 4 or 5 black dudes throughout the 6 years we were together.
@1,167,265 (F)
> Don't blame the internet, it didn't turn me into an abusive psychopath. The variable here is you.
Nah, like I said, I was homeschooled and didn't get the social interaction I needed to develop. Before homeschooling I was a mini-Chad, all the popular girls crushed on me and I was the quarterback of the football team. My parents homeschooled my because my mom thought that God spoke to her in a dream and told her it was the right thing to do. During my homeschooling, my sleep schedule went to shit, and since my dad was usually at work during the day, and my mom was unstable as fuck, I didn't do any actual work. I was technically unschooled for a couple of years. I just stayed up all night browsing 4chan. I posted a lot of nudes of myself on 4chan when I was 12. Looking back I realize how illegal that was, but I needed the attention. I sometimes wonder if those nudes are still floating around out there somewhere in some weird pedo communities. Kimmo Alm probably has them on his hard drive.
@previous (Green !StaYqkzUPc)
> Why don't the OPs of these interesting threads ever stick about? I'd have a proper good chinwag about this that's for true.
I don't check this website that often, usually once a day or so.
boof joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 5 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,456
do you like pickles by chance
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 7 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,488
@OP
How old are you? Going to school even community college is an easy way out of poverty.
Study computer science, nursing, accounting, or civil engineering. Thereβs a few degrees that arenβt hard that you can make a lot of money with.
How old are you? Going to school even community college is an easy way out of poverty.
Study computer science, nursing, accounting, or civil engineering. Thereβs a few degrees that arenβt hard that you can make a lot of money with.
Green !StaYqkzUPc replied with this 3 years ago, 9 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,490
At least you're not fat π
Anonymous I joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 3 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,491
Anonymous J joined in and replied with this 3 years ago, 14 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,493
@OP
There are people on this forum who are in much worse shape than you.
There are people on this forum who are in much worse shape than you.
Anonymous A (OP) replied with this 3 years ago, 1 hour later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,500
@1,167,456 (boof)
> do you like pickles by chance
I do.
@1,167,488 (H)
> How old are you? Going to school even community college is an easy way out of poverty.
>
> Study computer science, nursing, accounting, or civil engineering. Thereβs a few degrees that arenβt hard that you can make a lot of money with.
Mid-20s. Tried my hand at community college when I was 18, but my heart wasn't in it and I didn't have the discipline to get shit done. I still don't have the discipline, which is why I'm afraid to try it again.
@1,167,490 (Green !StaYqkzUPc)
> At least you're not fat π
I'm getting pretty fat. My metabolism has always been fairly fast, but it's slowing down, and I've just been sitting on my ass doing nothing for like a month.
@1,167,491 (I)
> sounds like you're good at blaming other people for everything
That's an easy thing to say, but put yourself in my shoes and imagine what you'd do. I'm mentally ill because of the way I was raised. That's not me blaming anybody else for anything, that's just me being honest about my upbringing. Learn the difference, fag.
> do you like pickles by chance
I do.
@1,167,488 (H)
> How old are you? Going to school even community college is an easy way out of poverty.
>
> Study computer science, nursing, accounting, or civil engineering. Thereβs a few degrees that arenβt hard that you can make a lot of money with.
Mid-20s. Tried my hand at community college when I was 18, but my heart wasn't in it and I didn't have the discipline to get shit done. I still don't have the discipline, which is why I'm afraid to try it again.
@1,167,490 (Green !StaYqkzUPc)
> At least you're not fat π
I'm getting pretty fat. My metabolism has always been fairly fast, but it's slowing down, and I've just been sitting on my ass doing nothing for like a month.
@1,167,491 (I)
> sounds like you're good at blaming other people for everything
That's an easy thing to say, but put yourself in my shoes and imagine what you'd do. I'm mentally ill because of the way I was raised. That's not me blaming anybody else for anything, that's just me being honest about my upbringing. Learn the difference, fag.
Anonymous J replied with this 3 years ago, 8 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,557
@previous (A)
Imagine being a 48 year old man living in a run-down apartment with no career, no sexual partner, surviving off of unstable fast food jobs and a meager income from poorly written vampire novels.
You aren't at that point.
Imagine being a 48 year old man living in a run-down apartment with no career, no sexual partner, surviving off of unstable fast food jobs and a meager income from poorly written vampire novels.
You aren't at that point.
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@1,167,500 (A)
> Mid-20s. Tried my hand at community college when I was 18, but my heart wasn't in it and I didn't have the discipline to get shit done. I still don't have the discipline, which is why I'm afraid to try it again.
So youβve decided to quit on life then? No sense whining about it if youβve decided to quit. Even the dumbest of the dumb can get an AA. I know a lot of incredibly stupid people who have bachelors degree. Itβs not difficult at all
> Mid-20s. Tried my hand at community college when I was 18, but my heart wasn't in it and I didn't have the discipline to get shit done. I still don't have the discipline, which is why I'm afraid to try it again.
So youβve decided to quit on life then? No sense whining about it if youβve decided to quit. Even the dumbest of the dumb can get an AA. I know a lot of incredibly stupid people who have bachelors degree. Itβs not difficult at all
boof replied with this 3 years ago, 22 minutes later, 3 days after the original post[^] [v] #1,167,939
but like, you have to read and write a lot and that really really sucks and I say it's hard