Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 started this discussion 5 years ago#100,565
I guess I relapsed yet again but here I am posting on a chan website. I know some anon out there is going to call me out for being an attention seeker, but given how today went it feels as if I don't need to seek it. I've always tried to be as honest as I possibly can whenever I post on this name and tripcode, but I can see it's more or less just became a joke that I no longer feel comfortable posting with it. If I post again I'm just going to stick to what I was doing before I even got the Girl/Catherine name/tripcode years ago and post as anon.
Not that very many of you care, but for those who've I called my friends who may be wondering what is going on in my life. Change! A lot of changes that can sometimes feel overbearing at times. I asked a family friend of mine who I finally reached out to since he's been trying to contact me for sometime since he is a big transgender advocate if he or somebody he knew could use a personal assistant. I said I was in this for potential work experience and a income. I told him that my skills maybe amateur so I'd be willing to work for minimum wage. He told me that he would and I might get some experience in video editing and management of pod casts since he runs a pod cast. I've worked up the nerve to post a dating website profile with an actual profile picture (no, you cannot know my moniker or what dating apps they are) and felt overwhelmed by the mass messages of horny guys showing me their dick pics. It makes me question if I pass better than even I believe. Anyway, there is one guy who was nice to me and I feel bad because I'm always so timid and shy especially when the subject of sex and intimacy comes up.
Besides my potential foray into love and work. Today I actually attended my first church sermon as an adult from a man that I've met long ago who, especially after today, I feel I was meant to meet. He's a priest and he's openly gay. The church group is an LGBT one. I figured I'd take the plunge because ever since I started HRT I felt like maybe I was also embarking on a spiritual transitioning/awakening as well from an atheist to currently an agnostic to who knows where God might send me. A friend I made on Facebook that I've been speaking with over the past few months answered me when I asked if I was going through a spiritual awakening with a definite yes and to just let it happen. I think maybe now is the time that I start let it happen. My brother moved out as he got a big job promotion out in Houston, Texas so I moved into the master bedroom here after my mother declined the offer repeatingly from my brother and myself. It's like I had my first studio apartment so to speak with my own walk-in closet and private bathroom (just got a bidet attachment, shit is SO cash). But regardless, I eagerly look forward to seeing what he has planned for next Sunday. I have this awkward yet comforting joy right now that I'll probably cry both in happiness and fright at the change.
As far as my gender transitioning is going. I am doing good. My breasts might be an A cup right now but I'm not giving a definite size since they take 2-to-3 years to develop fully so I don't know how much bigger they're going to get. My doctor recently increased my dosage of estrogen from 2 patches per week to 4 patches per week. Meaning that I am wearing 2 patches and swapping them out midweek. I do have to take a massive cocktail of medications though which include spironolactone (200 mil a day) morning and evenings, 1/2 pill of finasteride per day as an added T blocker and for my hair mostly, vitamin D supplements per day, vitamin E (or I think it's D3) supplements per day, an allergy medication, and I have a nasal spray for my congestion when needed.
I truly feel blessed. I feel blessed to have found the Transgender Health and Wellness Center and I am beginning to realize that it may have been blessing to find this church going to help with finding my spiritual identity or answer questions about my spiritual awakening. I even came out to my brother after so long and just today I came out to my aunt.
Hopefully, all of these goals I set for myself long ago can be fulfilled and I can be happy for once before I die.
Maybe someday I'll be able to join in with Rapunzel when she sings this song. I just have to continue thinking positive, being patient, and never give into what little despair or desperation remains from the darker periods in my life.
To everyone here on Minichan and Tinychan who helped me along my way and my journey. Thank you and I love you all. And for those who don't like me, get in line. I'm done with negativity and while I may slip into a bad emotional mood, I know, it will pass. If I hurt or offended anyone here over the course of my time here then I apologize. You likely wouldn't have to see me anymore. I might still post anon on occasion. In fact, I have made smaller anon posts here already out of habit, but most of my time has been on Facebook like some normie. lol
The world is crazy out there and it's important to fill it up with love and understanding. I just hope I could fully stop being selfish.
Anonymous D replied with this 5 years ago, 2 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,134,484
@previous (Apocalypse Indy™ !bYobIzYIFE)
I get why you do this, you want to fuck him up even more. But I have never got why Kook does it.
Catherine !ttGirlsPl2 (OP) replied with this 5 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,134,485
@1,134,460 (Kook !!rcSrAtaAC)
I'm not quitting school but I think I am nearing the end of what I can do. I apparently earned those two degrees (they told me I was missing units) and they kept saying they were sending me them through the mail but I never got it, but I hope to graduate next year. I am a triple major since I might as well add the Fine Arts degree since that's only three more classes. I just need 7 units toward that. Three 3 unit courses should get me that easy.
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Anonymous D replied with this 5 years ago, 1 minute later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,134,486
Kook !!rcSrAtaAC replied with this 5 years ago, 7 minutes later, 1 hour after the original post[^][v]#1,134,487
@1,134,485 (Catherine !ttGirlsPl2)
That's good. Just to let you know, you have the ability to revitalize your own name by good choices and interesting topics/replies
Anonymous H joined in and replied with this 5 years ago, 49 minutes later, 2 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,134,516
Catherine is fail.
Dead !Pool..v42s joined in and replied with this 5 years ago, 51 minutes later, 3 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,134,564
Awesome keep going after that best life!!
19bitch !/nxYguuEzA joined in and replied with this 5 years ago, 10 hours later, 13 hours after the original post[^][v]#1,134,737
> I guess I relapsed yet again but here I am posting on a chan website. I know some anon out there is going to call me out for being an attention seeker, but given how today went it feels as if I don't need to seek it. I've always tried to be as honest as I possibly can whenever I post on this name and tripcode, but I can see it's more or less just became a joke that I no longer feel comfortable posting with it. If I post again I'm just going to stick to what I was doing before I even got the Girl/Catherine name/tripcode years ago and post as anon. > > Not that very many of you care, but for those who've I called my friends who may be wondering what is going on in my life. Change! A lot of changes that can sometimes feel overbearing at times. I asked a family friend of mine who I finally reached out to since he's been trying to contact me for sometime since he is a big transgender advocate if he or somebody he knew could use a personal assistant. I said I was in this for potential work experience and a income. I told him that my skills maybe amateur so I'd be willing to work for minimum wage. He told me that he would and I might get some experience in video editing and management of pod casts since he runs a pod cast. I've worked up the nerve to post a dating website profile with an actual profile picture (no, you cannot know my moniker or what dating apps they are) and felt overwhelmed by the mass messages of horny guys showing me their dick pics. It makes me question if I pass better than even I believe. Anyway, there is one guy who was nice to me and I feel bad because I'm always so timid and shy especially when the subject of sex and intimacy comes up. > > Besides my potential foray into love and work. Today I actually attended my first church sermon as an adult from a man that I've met long ago who, especially after today, I feel I was meant to meet. He's a priest and he's openly gay. The church group is an LGBT one. I figured I'd take the plunge because ever since I started HRT I felt like maybe I was also embarking on a spiritual transitioning/awakening as well from an atheist to currently an agnostic to who knows where God might send me. A friend I made on Facebook that I've been speaking with over the past few months answered me when I asked if I was going through a spiritual awakening with a definite yes and to just let it happen. I think maybe now is the time that I start let it happen. My brother moved out as he got a big job promotion out in Houston, Texas so I moved into the master bedroom here after my mother declined the offer repeatingly from my brother and myself. It's like I had my first studio apartment so to speak with my own walk-in closet and private bathroom (just got a bidet attachment, shit is SO cash). But regardless, I eagerly look forward to seeing what he has planned for next Sunday. I have this awkward yet comforting joy right now that I'll probably cry both in happiness and fright at the change. > > As far as my gender transitioning is going. I am doing good. My breasts might be an A cup right now but I'm not giving a definite size since they take 2-to-3 years to develop fully so I don't know how much bigger they're going to get. My doctor recently increased my dosage of estrogen from 2 patches per week to 4 patches per week. Meaning that I am wearing 2 patches and swapping them out midweek. I do have to take a massive cocktail of medications though which include spironolactone (200 mil a day) morning and evenings, 1/2 pill of finasteride per day as an added T blocker and for my hair mostly, vitamin D supplements per day, vitamin E (or I think it's D3) supplements per day, an allergy medication, and I have a nasal spray for my congestion when needed. > > I truly feel blessed. I feel blessed to have found the Transgender Health and Wellness Center and I am beginning to realize that it may have been blessing to find this church going to help with finding my spiritual identity or answer questions about my spiritual awakening. I even came out to my brother after so long and just today I came out to my aunt. > > Hopefully, all of these goals I set for myself long ago can be fulfilled and I can be happy for once before I die. > > Maybe someday I'll be able to join in with Rapunzel when she sings this song. I just have to continue thinking positive, being patient, and never give into what little despair or desperation remains from the darker periods in my life. > > To everyone here on Minichan and Tinychan who helped me along my way and my journey. Thank you and I love you all. And for those who don't like me, get in line. I'm done with negativity and while I may slip into a bad emotional mood, I know, it will pass. If I hurt or offended anyone here over the course of my time here then I apologize. You likely wouldn't have to see me anymore. I might still post anon on occasion. In fact, I have made smaller anon posts here already out of habit, but most of my time has been on Facebook like some normie. lol > > The world is crazy out there and it's important to fill it up with love and understanding. I just hope I could fully stop being selfish. > > Thank you all. > > With love, > > ~ Catherine / Catherine Constantine / Ms. Constantine / Spode / Girl > > p.s. Jemima Aquanetta Constantine strikes again! That's not going to be my new legal name though.